Maybe I am just hormonal cause I have been feeling O pains again and today I had some EWCM. Who can say?

Had my folks and grandmonster over today for the break fast for Yom Kippur. The kiddos had a great time. Sam LOVES my mom! Nana this and Nana that... But every one went outside and left me to cook with the grandmonster as my only company... YIKES! She was on pretty good behavior and when I was almost bitten thru my tongue, I had Ben bring her outside to watch the kiddos play.

Dinner was good, but I ate WAAAAAY too many carbs and now feel like a bloated beached whale. Oh well, I will go back to my carb counting ways tomorrow. There is something about the Jewish holidays that require me to eat fruit Kugel and jello mold (may sound strange but it is YUMMY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!) It feels good to be passing on traditions to my kiddos. Ben says it is neat cause his family never did this kind of stuff.

In a few weeks we will be going on Sam's first field trip for school. We are going to the pumpkin patch. Ben is going to take the day off from work so he can go too.

Ben and I decided that we are going to hire a baby sitter 2x a month and go on dates. We talked a lot and decided that things are just so hectic sometimes (good hectic but hectic) that it is easy to forget about us. So we are now going to go on dates.

Blogs coming soon... a wild morning glory seed story from my wilder days...

Random thoughts... wonder if Susan has had the baby yet... Hope Lexi's collar bone isn't severly broken and hoping Nicole doesn't beat herself up too much.

Happy bday Jimmy. Can't believe Lynn has a teenage son.

Hope Susan has the baby soon and her epidural is waiting for her at the door.

Wonder why Leanna changed her name on PP?

Hope Michelle's Darren stays on the wagon with no smoking. Still in awe w/ her having baby #4!

Glad Jess is ok w/ the decision on no more kiddos.

Where have all the IM chats gone????

Wonder when my PPAF will return and if we are done w/ kiddos????

Hope Mel is feeling better soon. (And me too!)

Kit's first day of music class is tomorrow. Sam will come w/ us cause we are doing an extra class to make up for missing last week (Kit's double ear infection...).

Glad Chip and Kim won the Amazing Race, but feel bad that Cowboy did not win BB5. He was the only one who was not a liar.

I am very tired but I am up with a NASTY headache. Poor me.

My tagboard is back. Scroll down and say hi!

I love my kiddos. They are perfect! And I love Ben, but we have been so busy lately that there has been no time for sex and cuddles and I am lonely. And then I am too tired to do anything about it! *sigh* Ups and downs and ups and downs... marriage takes work and is not easy. Nothing worth having ever is.

Well we felt the effects of Ivan last night w/ wild winds and tons of rain. We lost power for a bit and the road down the street from us is flooded and closed. The creek is 4 feet higher than normal! Two towns over, the Delaware River is over the guard rail in places and it has been declared a State of Emergency.

Our outside porch furniture was blown into neignbors yards and our basement, for the first time, was filled with water. So I spent the morning using a wet vac to clean it out. My insanse husband felt he HAD to go to work, so he had to drive waaaaay north to get to a highway that could get him to work cause the back roads are flooded. What normally takes 20 minutes, took over an hour. But he is now safe and sound. I would have preferred him to take a sick day, but he wouldn't. :(

I am getting sick again for the 3rd time in a month. Again it is my sinuses. I can't hear out of my right ear, my throat is killing me and the back of my neck is so painful. I think I am not fully getting over it and have not slowed down, so I keep relapsing. I think I may have to break down and go to the doctor cause this is just getting to be stupid. I don't know if I will be able to take an antiboitic though cause Kit is on one for his double ear infection. ??? I have a feeling my cold went awry and I have a sinis infection and that is why I keep relapsing.

Onto happy things... the kids' naming was last night at the children services. They both were very well behaved. But when we were up with the Rabbi and he was blessing the kids, Sam was fascintated with a boy in the fron row and kept pointing to him, loudly saying, "BOY. BOY. BOY. BOY. BOY..." Everyone was laughing. Then after the service, she chased him for 15 minutes saying, "BOY. BOY. BOY. BOY. BOY.." His name was Matt and he must have been around 9. He was a good sport about it, but his older brother was teasing him so. My little Sam already is boy crazy - oh no!

Baby Kit was trying to sing with the canter. Every time she sang, he cooed really loudly. One thing for sure is that my kiddos are NOT shy! The Rabbi said they were good though and it was a children's service afterall, lol! They had instruments for the kids to play with the music. So all the kids had tamborines and maraccas to play. It was a really nice service. Even Ben said it was nice, but he said the Hebrew was a little confusing. Fair enough! I think going once a month will be really nice family time.

The 60 cupcakes I made for the Oneg went down well. There were a lot left over, but I told the Rabbi to keep them for the kids to eat during Sunday School. He smiled.

My parents and sister and husband came to the naming. They were supposed to come early to spend time with the kids. As it turned out, they got here 45 mins before we were supposed to leave. So I shoved pizza in everyone's mouth, the kids opened a few gifts (which was very nice of my sister and husband and my parents to bring for the kids) and then it was time to go. They ended up leaving after the service, so they didn't really get to spend much time with us or the kids. But at least she finally met them! Maybe now that she has, she will have some incentive to come back. ???

So I figured we get together while they were up this weekend (my reason for not going to LFEST), well my sister told me last night that they have plans with friends on Saturday both morning and evening. I was like, oh, ok then. It is VERY strange. Oh, and I found out later that the reason they were late coming here yesterday was cause their dog had the runs. We always rank after the pets, bizzare isn't it? But I just laughed about it to Ben. I refuse to spend any more time being angry. They just obviously are different from me and I have a choice to either accept it for what it is or not to.

Kids up from their naps and ready to play.

Well poor baby Kit spiked a fever this morning and I took him to the doctor. Turns out my little guy has a double ear infection. That explains the crankiness and why he hasn't been sleeping. I dropped off his script for Augmentin and we came home to play for the hour until it is ready.

Baby Kit is such a good baby. He may be feeling like crap, but he still smiles and plays. Well as he was cruising around in his walker, Samantha decided that it would be a great idea to bop him over the head with a plastic toy. Of course he cried, so I picked him up and also told Sam to sit on the sofa for a time out. Kit wasn't hurt, just startled. He calmed down quickly. At that point I went over to Sam on the sofa and asked why she did that to her brother. She looked at me with a straight face, waved her hand and answered, "Pish Posh Mama."

"Excuse me?" I asked not believing what I heard.

"Pish Posh," she stated firmly, again waving her hand.

At this point I had to bite my tongue not to laugh. I held baby Kit in front of her and said, "You hurt Kit, what do you have to say?"

"Pish Posh Baby Kit."

Now I really wanted to laugh, but it is my job to stand firm. So I explained why it is not nice to hit her brother and she eventually said she was sorry. But OMG - where do kids get these things?

Ok, I am off to get Kit's medicine!

I just read part of the log that Allie's parents have been writing as they have battled w/ her Lukemia. How tragic that a child that young has had to battle such an ugly foe and has lost the battle. I am sure w/ the fentanyl, she is in little discomfort. But God, how do you watch your child die? I found myself looking at this baby's photos and thinking what a beautiful child she is. What is the reason that a 9 mth old has to leave the Earth in this way and how as a parent do you recover from such a loss?

I look at baby Kit, who was just born a few weeks after this little girl and can't imagine the horror of him not being here. And the word "Fentanyl" brings be back to Sam on her vent last summer. And we were lucky, we got to bring our baby home. I will be keeping these people in my thoughts and prayers and I hope that this sweet baby feels no pain and carries her parent's love with her as she continues on.

This is the web page I was reading... http://www.scotthousehold.com/

I wish I had a million dollars. I'd keep having babies until my uterus fell out. I'd pay someone to clean my house and do all the crap that kept me from my kiddos. All I would do is spend time with them and enjoy life. But counting my blessings, I have 2 wonderful kiddos and I thank God for them everyday.

Hug and kiss your kiddos if you have them. Despite the hardships we all face, all things being equal, hopefully we are alive and over-all pretty healthy.

Right before I go to sleep, I have a billiong ideas of what I want to blog about. It feels like when I wake up the next day, time just whizzes by and then it is night again and of course I didn't get a minute to blog.

For me, this blog is my journal and I will get as personal as I want to. For my friends that know me and read this, it will just let them see a bit more into me and for stangers, it doesn't matter cause they don't know me. But the point of it is that it is my record of my life events and my thoughts. It will be something that in years to come that I can look back on and enjoy and maybe even share with my kids. That is what really matters to me.

Samantha....
Started nursery school this week and did great! She did not cry when we left; however, the teacher said that she did cry a little in the middle of the day. Sam talked positively about school and even said she wanted to go back. But she cried when we got in the car on Friday cause she thought we were going to school. I think she is very conflicted - the big girl and the baby in her are at odds. This Sunday is the first day of Sunday School for Sam. What is nice about it is that for pre-school age, Sunday school is a mommy and me class. So both Ben and I will be with Samantha (as well as Baby Kit too!). So it will be a nice family thing together. Sunday school is by weekly. I think Sunday school will be a nice introduction to the Temple for Sam and Kit.

Christopher...
is standing, cruising and crawling like a mad man. He is getting very quick with his crawling and his cruising is getting better every day! I think he will be walking even earlier than Sam was - oh my! He is such a darling boy. He has a smile that just lites up the room and he is such a happy, pleasant little boy. His two top teeth still have not come in yet, but it is hard and swollen on his gums. I hope they cut thru. Poor pumpkin has been getting up every 2 hours at night. I know he is uncomfortable and it bothers him.

I am going to take Kit to a music class on Thursdays when Sam is in school. I think he will really enjoy it and it will be nice to have one-on-one time with him like I had with Samantha.

We have started teaching Kit to sign like we did with Sam. Kit can already sign the word "more" when he wants more food - clever boy!

And Sam and Kit have really started to play niceley together. They will sit and play with little people and blocks for quite awhile. Every morning when Sam gets up she rushes in to tell Kit, "Baby it's sunny outside." She then looks at me and says, "Baby is happy to see me! I'm happy to see baby!" I hope they always have a close relationship.

Grown up stuff...
Ben and I have had very little time together lately. We both spend lots of time with the kids, but with the addition of my job and an already busy achedule - time has not been there. It has been upsetting me and I finally told him last night. I don't want to be one of those couples that forget about each other and then years later have nothing in common anymore. He agreed that we need to make sure that we just have Ben and Wendy time. It is hard to find the time to be affectionate (not sex, holding hands, cuddling... ect) with 2 little ones, but it is important as is conversation that does not only revolve around the kiddos. Luckily we both are like minded that marriage is a work in progress and always needs to be tended to to keep it healthy. I have missed time with him. And that is when I start getting resentful and bitchy.

As far as my job, I really do love it! It is so easy and the money has been great. The owner leaves me be to wait on my tables and do my stuff. I like that. It gets on my nerves to have someone up my ass. It is also nice to get out of the house and just be me for a little. And no matter how busy the restaurant gets, it is still WAAAAAAY easier that taking care of 2 little ones 24-7. When it is your kids, you hate to have them upset. If a customer gets upset (not that I want that...), they leave shortly after dinner and then I don't have to see them again (thus the less stress), so who cares, lol! I mean, I want them happy so they tip well, but it just is not as important as my kiddos!

Was really nice. Sam was very nervous when we first got there, but by the end, she did not want to go home! We got to meet some of the other kids in her class and their parents. All seemed very nice. Ben and I both think that Samantha is going to do very well. It was really cute watching all the 2 year olds go back and forth between wanting to be w/ their parents and be with each other and play.

I still can remember nursery school and I really enjoyed it. Every day the excitement built when it was free play as I ran to the BIG TRICYCLE as fast as I could. Round and round the room I rode thr giant red trike. Who knows how big it really was, but back then it looked HUGE! I remember my teachers, what the class room looked like and even some of the songs. It was a very happy, innocent time. I really want Sam to have that.

Baby Kit loved watching the big kids and he got to play with some Duplo blocks. As soon as he is walking, there is no doubt that he will be Samantha's little shadow!

Ben and I chuckled about barely being able to remember what it was like before having kids and we were married for 6 years before Sam was born, lol! We are lucky that we have a strong marriage cause boy does the time go fast when there are 2 little ones. It is important to make sure that we still make time for each other. And we are fortunate that the communication is good so when one of us starts taking a little too much for granted and the things that spouses do to each other, we can talk about it.

I am so thankful for my family. (And my friends too!)

29 years old means only 1 more year til 30! Love you!!!!!!

And on a lighter note... the kids and I had so much fun getting the house ready for Ben's little surprise bday party. We made the cake, decorated, got party hats and pin the tail on the donkey. When he got home from work, we jumped out and said "Surprise!" We then ate cake for dinner and he opened his gifts! The funniest was watching Sam try to pin the tail on the donkey and watching Kit DEVOUR his cake! He was covered in icing! Tomorrow is Bens real bday but it was fun to make the party tonight as a surprise after a hard weekend of work for him.

We went to the fair last night, which Sam has renamed Sam's playgound. They had live stock animals, pony rides, amusement rides, games and of course food. We got there early, so we were able to eat. (In my family, eating is ALWAYS a priority, lol!)

We bought Sam and me a wrist band so that we could go on all the kiddie rides together. Well the stupid ride people would not let me go on the rides with her! Granted I am big, but if I don't mind looking like an idiot, why should they care? And poor Sam was too afraid to stay on most the rides by herself. Luckily Sam made friends with a nice 6 year old girl named Francesca and they then went on most the rides together. And then our 7 year old neighbor and Sam's best friend, Morgan, showed up, so Sam was rearing to go on all the rides then! She was sooo cute as she would ride around on the cars and then boats and motorcyles. Kiddie rides are so cute!

Baby Kit was lauging and smiling so much as he watched his big sister went round and round. He really enjoys watching people. Ben decided that it would be easier to hold Kit instead of using the Baby Bjorn or stroller. I didn't say anything. By the end of the night Ben was complaining how heavy Kit is. I was like REALLY? LOL!

Sam got to ride a giant white pony and she was in heaven. We also checked out all the cows, sheep, goats and pigs. The kiddos really enjoy seeing the animals.

I attempted to go on a big kid ride where you lay flat and then the big wheel goes up and it is almost like hang gliding, but when the guy buckled me in, I felt claustrophobic and panicked. That has never happened to me before. I yelled for Ben to get the man to let me off. My heart was racing and I really thought I was losing my mind. It felt like I was in a coffin. I guess I don't like being restrained like that while on my belly. I laughed about it to Ben when I got off that I cried like a big baby before the ride even started, but I was really upset. It's not like I can't go on scarey rides - I still love rollercoasters, but this one freaked me out. I guess I'm not 17 and fearless anymore...

Ben's 29th bday is on Monday. So Sunday when Ben is at work, the kids and I are going to make a cake, decorate the house and have a little party for him when he gets home. Sam and I have been planning it all week. Sam keeps reminding me that we need party hats, lol. She is looking forward to helping me make the cake.

Kit has had a big week. He has stood for the first time, he in now crawling and today he sat up by himself for the first time. BIG BOY!!!!!!! I looked at Sam's baby book and she started doing those things also at around 8 mths and then she was walking by 9 mths. So, I think Kit may also be an early walked - oh no, lol! I think I'm busy now...hee, hee... And Kit is so much more nosey than Sam ever was. Even now, he gets into everything. We have lovingly nick-named him Dennis The Menace.

Next week we have Sam's open house for nursery school. I still can't quite believe she will be going. And on the potty front, Sam is 2 thumbs up. The only time she is in a pull up now is at night. WOO HOO SAM!!!!!!

On me - I am loving my little p/t job. Came home with $131.00 on Thurs. YIPEE! And 2 days a week is just right. The boss wants me to take another night, but I am sticking with two. I feel that 3 nights would just be taking too much time away from our family and I am not willing to do that. Sure, I'd love another night of dollars, but certain things, like my family, are beyond a price.

Thinking of my many family and friends who are ill, have sick loved ones, have kiddos starting school for the first time, are preggo and feeling yuck and keeping you all in my thoughts and prayers.

And on that note, I am off to play with the kiddos.