Christmas was wonderful, tiring, but wonderful.  For both Samantha and Kit is was the most magical day.  Their eyes were SOOOO huge as they saw all the presents and the day just got better and better for them. 

Ben and I had set up the trains for them before they got up.  That went down very well with them.. Sam just ran ran the room exclaiming, "WOW" as she ran from thing to thing.  We must have opened gifts for hours!  I tell you., it was dark by the time we finally had everything put together.

The kids both passed right out when it was time for bed.  Can I even tell you how much Ben and I enjoyed making Christmas for the kiddos?

I will post pics in my gallery later today.

As far as me, physically, I still feel like shit.  I am bleeding like my insides are falling out and I was in A LOT of pain.  I still hurt, but it is getting better.  Mentally, I think I am ok.  I think that my body is just not ready yet to hold onto anything.  And that means that it is not time.  Sam said to me before bed last night that Ann-Susie went to a new home.  She has a new house now.  Isn't that weird.

I haven't told Ben what I suspected cause I see no reason to freak him out.  But last night I did bring up the subject of more kids.  He said that he really didn't want more.  His reasons were pretty much financial.  And I told him that I felt like that there was one more memeber of our family missing.  But that I wasn't sure if it was cause Kit was turning a year.  But that I was sure that if we were going to have another, I want it sooner than later cause I'd like the kiddos to all be close in age.

So we decided to do nothing with BC and sit on this for a couple on months and to revisit where we both are then.  And then we will see.  Ben said although he feels like a no now, that he is open and if it is still important to me in a couple of months, nothing is definate.

So talking about that made me feel better and I hope that if we do decided to try for #3 in a couple of months, that gives me a chance to lose a little more weight to get stronger.  I also just recently started getting my period again, so I have time.

Ok, it's time to kiss my bday boy and play with the kiddos.  Smoochies to all my wonderful friends who are the most supportive and wonderful people I know!
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