Well, I followed Jen's advice and gave Ben a 12 hour detail of my life.  He looked at me kind of strange when i handed it to him, but, I explained it was to help him understand where I was coming from.  I didn't want him always thinking I was having a go at him.  He didn't say much about it, but he did get more helpful afterwards.  So here's to hoping the lightbulb did go off!

The rest of the day after Christmas was very nice.  It was Kit's 2nd bday.  I can NOT believe my boy is 2!  Sam, Kit and I made a bday cake.  It kids are too funny when we bake.  They LOVE eating the batter and end up wearing almost as much as we put in the pan.  After the cake was cooled and iced, the kids had a blast decorating it with M&M's and Hershey Kisses.  I made a pinapple glazed ham for dinner.  Ben also left work early.  It made for a nice day. 

We also got done making the kids bday party invatations.  We are going to have a joint bday party for them in Feb (late for Kit and early for Sam).  Sam's bday is 10 days after my scheduled section and I just do not seeing making a bday party then.  She does not mind ahving it early and is excited to share a party with Kit.

Then yesterday, we had to take Kit to the doc yesterday.  He spiked a fever over the past few days.  Looks like he has an ear infection.  The good news is that he is now on antibiotics, so in another day, he should be better.  I stayed with Sam while Ben took the boy.  She was sleeping.  When she woke up, she was so upset that Kit was not here.  She insisted that I get her a picture of him cause "Baby Kit is the best and I love him SOOOOO much."  I was like awwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwww....  They may squabble, but they do really love each other to pieces.

My sugars have been going up.  I think it is a combo of being more pregnant and all the freaking Chirstmas goodies in the house.  I think I am golng to dump half the crap right in the trash.  I just do not want them to get so high that I have to go back on insulin.  It has been nice avoiding it this pregnancy!

Last night at work, it was slow so I sent the other girl home.  Then of couse we filled up.  I went from having $11.00 in my pocket at 7 to having $100.00 at 9.  Can I tell you how much I am beginning to feel it now.  My legs, my pelvis and my back were on fire by the end of the night.  It hurt so much that I could not sleep at all last night.  It was my turn to get up with the kids, but I was in no shape to do it.  So at 6 when Kit woke, I woke Ben up and made him do it.  I usually would never do that, but I figured screw it, I am allowed to ask for help.  So I did.  He grumbled, but he got up.  Yeay for me for asking for help!  My right leg is still a mess today, I am hobbling around like I am 1000 years old.  I am hoping the more I move, it will loosen up.  I am scheduled to work tonight and I hate to give up the money.  Oh well, the more I hobble, the more people will feel bad for the big ole pregnant lady and then will tip me, not for my skill but out of pity!  LOL!

I am off now to go play with the kiddos!

• I have been feeling really tired, not myself, and at the end of my rope lately.  I think part of it is I am 7 and half months pregnant.  I also think Ben has been busy with his new position and everything in the house has all fallen to me as well as normal day to day and my own work while being pregnant.  With the holidays, I have been busy getting everything ready, cleaned, cooked, wrapped and decorated.  Not to mention that I have been getting ready for the baby - going thru all the old clothes and stuff.  Going thru the attic was a 3 day job - I spent 11 hours the first day alone.  I have not bitched, complained, asked for help or any extra consideration even with being preggo.  I have even picked up extra shifts and made time to sell things on Ebay to try to help ends meet and cover the extra costs of Christmas.  I went to Sam's school play by myself, with Kit, video in one hand, camera in the other so that Ben would not miss anything.

Last week, I had gotten pissed when he didn't put back my 409 and it took me 30 mins to find it, left the kitchen a freaking pit from when I worked the nite before, dishwasher full and I was trying to get the kids ready and out by 8:30.  I called him on the phone and told him that I had HAD it and I needed some help.  He was too busy to call me all day at work.  Pissed me off even tho he is in retail and I am sure he was really busy.  Friday night we went out but never really talked about it cause we were out on a date and God knows we do not get a lot of them.  So I mentioned again that I feel not like myself and on edge.

The day of Sam's Chirstmas concert, I had made video of the concert and of some stuff afterwards.  I asked him to watch it but something always came up and I guess he couldn't find the 10 minutes to do it.

Fast forward today... when we were showing my mom Sam's concert on the video, he taped over the past after that I had taped with Christmas this morning.  I was pissed and it really hurt my feelings.  It is not the end of the world, but I think because I have been feeling so taken for granted anyway, that I just saw red.  I gave him a hard time about it in front of my mom.  I know I shouldn't have, but I was so mad.  He left the room and went up stairs.

My mom then said that I shouldn't have done that (which I knew).  Ben is a good guy guy and has a lot on his plate now with a new job and a new baby coming (really?  And I don't?)... I bit my mouth.  But I wanted to say and how much more am I supposed to freakling bend cause I already feel like a soft pretzel.  We spend LOTS of time talking about his new job and discusing things... 

So my mom went down to the playroom with Sam and I went upstairs to apologize for saying something in front of my mom.  I told him I knew I was wrong.  But when I tried to explain why I acted out of character, we just argued.  Luckily my dad and Kit were both sleeping and my mom and Sam were still in the basement (playroom).  I do not even know if I can explain how it feels.... it's like he regugitates what I say yet somehow I am coming off as just having a go at him and he is a martyr... "I never do anything nice for you...."  When all I want him to do is put himself in my shoes for 5 minutes.  By the end we made up but I still feel really upset.  I love him and for the most part he is a really great guy.  I think the problem is that I make things too easy for him on a regular basis and he takes me for granted with out thinking about it.  In my mind, I say to myslef, stop doing so much... but that is how I am.  

But at the end of they day I am 7 and half months pregnant, busting my ass with the family, the house, the bills (I do them), doc appts (which are a lot cause I am high riskj) and work (which is waitressing so I am on my feet), getting ready for the baby (which I have done EVERYTHING myself so far...) and I have not asked for one ounce of help or special consideration.  Am I just being a bitch cause I at least expect him to notice or take the time to watch a 10 minute video that I made of the kids?  And lets not even talk about not being able to sleep cause the pain in my crotch actually wakes me up on the off hours when I am not up peeing.  I go back and forth between the sofa and a chair.

And then of couse, it felt great to bawl for an hour after I busted my ass to make Christmas nice for everyone.  Luckiily no one else expect him really knew.

On a happy note, the kids woke early and were thrilled with all their pressents.  When Sam saw how many gifts, she screamed on the top of her lungs, "OH MY GOD!"  She and Kit are still busy playing gleefully.  They were really happy with everything we picked and the when my parents showed up, it was like a second Christmas...

Kit has Sam's cold, only his is in his chest.  I am using the cold air vaporizor for him.  He has a well visiti on 1/2, so if his cold isn't better by then we are going to the doctor anyway.

So don't I sound like such a pathetic jackass on Christmas.  I can't help it.  I do love my husband.  He is not a bad guy, infact he comes home every night, does not do the bar thing, does not cheat, is good with not spending money and I know he loves me... but I still am not liking him so much right now.  I am so tired.  All I want to do is go to bed and pull the covers over my head for the next month. 

Hope everyone has had a nice, stress-free Christmas! 

Sam has had the nastiest cold the past few days.  No fever, just lots and lots of snot plagued her with a very red, sore nose.  I wasn't sure if she was going to be able to go to school today for her Christmas party and concert.

This morning, she woke, still with a cold, but much better, so we went.  The kids shuffled into the class when we got there as the parents went and sat in the pews, waiting.  After 30 minutes the kids came in.  Sam beamed and started jumping up and down as she walked when she saw me.  Momma, Momma, Momma, she mouthed.  I of couse got choked up and waved to my girl.

The kids assembled in the front of the church and sang 4 Christmas carols and rang jingle bells.  It was too freaking cute.  From the moment Kit saw Sam, all he did was laugh and clap his hands.  He just adores his big sister.  That worked for me cause it allowed me to video and take pictures at the same time.  Thank heavens for 2 hands, lol.

Afterwards, we had cookies and juice/coffee.  The school had Santa come too!  I thought Sam and Kit were going tio jump out of their skins with excitement.  I am so glad she was well enough to go today!

Here's a pic of the kids after the concert.

Today as I was leaving Sunday school, a lady was shocked to hear that I am pregnant.  I was like what???  She said that she thought I was just chubby.  Now understand that I am ALL belly (will post a belly shot tonight...).  You see my belly about 15 mins before the rest of me gets there.  There is NO WAY that you can not know that I am pregnant.  What a dumb ass....

Speaking of Sunday school, my class is so cute.  The kids have such a good time.  I have gotten a lot of compliements lately and there is now a 13 year old who wants to be my assistant.  Too funny!  I even got a present from one of my students.  I was like AWWWW... I thought it was really nice especially cause we only meet 2x a month. 

Today Kit came with us to give Ben a break.  With the holidays and his new position, he has been working a lot.  Kit was very good in class.  Today was a fun day cause we went over Chanukah and had a party.  Sam said her favorite part was the dreidels and the chocolate, lol.

I have now hit the part of pg where when I lay on my side, my crotch feels like it is going to fall off.  You know, that pounding, unrelenting pain.  So I have only been able to fall asleep in a chair and it takes me forever to get to sleep.  Then once I do get to sleep, I have to get up to pee... LOL... the joy of pg!  It's weird cause in 9 weeks, my baby is going to be here already.  Where has the time gone?????  I must admit tho, I am excited to meet this little wonder.  I already feel very close to her.  I think with each pg, I have mellowed and it has made it easier to bond while pg.  With Sam I was such an anal mess... everything worried me!

I think I am going to have a combined bday party for Sam and Kit in Feb (late for Kit, early for Sam...)  I just do not think I will be up to having a party when the baby is 10 days old.  Now I have to decided if I am going to invite all the family or if I am going to just do a kid do.  The thing is we have some kiddo cousins that I want to invite cause they are kids too, but then how can I invite one relative and not another... KWIM?  I also do not want to spend a bloody fortune.  But if we do it at home, how much am I going to want to do 2 weeks before the baby comes?  Decisons, decisions...

Time to get the kids down for a nap!  Thank God for naps or I think I'd be a total loon by now.  I think my nap is the best sleep I get all day!

Took this myself with a camera phone... will add a few more as soon as the MMS goes thru from my cell to my computer!

Ok, they just came thru...

And this is my fav!  Not bad for being both the photographer and the subject, LOL.  But, refering the my previous post?  Not pregnant, just chubby..... Oh  puh-lease!

So I get this bill from Perinatal today.  Understand before I go any further that I have had the same EXACT insurance for all 3 pregnancies and the same EXACT protocol has been followed.  So this stupid bill is for $10.00.  It is not a lot, but I wanted to know why I was getting a bill since I never had one from them before. 

I called my insurance first.  They were great.  They agreed that I pay my initial co pay and then everything is covered as long as I stay in network, which I do.  They told me that they were going to resubmit it and it would take 30 days.  Fine.

I then call the hospital to let them know that my insuracne was going to be reprocessed and they'd get their 10 dollars.  The woman was like, "Oh that won't be covered under your initial global payment."  (meaning my only co pay...)  Then she went on to say that I had other co pays over the years with the kids.  She then said that things like non stress tests have co pays too.  So I asked her to give me dates that I have paid co pays.  She listed one in 2002 and one in 2003 for NST.  I again stressed that I have NEVER paid a co pay to them.  Altho I have infact had to call my insurance to get payment to them when something was processed incorrectly.  She pressed that I have paid some NST co pays.  I asked for dates again.  She could not comply.  I then said that I have been gestational diabetic for 3 pgs now.  I have had more NSTs than I can count.  I would KNOW if I have been paying co pays.   I am pregnant, not stupid. 

She did not like that and started to speak.  I told her that I was done.  My insurance would pay them their 10 dollars in the next 30 days.  I was calling to be considerate, not be aggrevated and to have a Merry Christmas.  I then hung up.

I had to go to work, but even at work, I was still annoyed.  So when I got home I looked at the bill.  It seems now the docs list an office visit for every proceedure, so I see where the mistake happened.  HOWEVER, it shows that I made a $15,00 payment on 10/17 and a $5.00 payment on 11/25.  Understand, I HAVE NEVER PAID THESE PEOPLE and I do all the bills at home.  I am an anal pain in the butt about reconciling the checkbook every day - we have on line banking, so it is easy.  So now I am really confused.  It seems that they charged me a $15.00 co pay back in August but due to 2 mysterious payments, it brought my balance of my second co pay from $15.00 to $10.00..  Only I should not have a co pay beyond my first and I never paid these people. 

I am so confused.  Is there some other person paying my bills?  If so, pay the big ones, LOL.  Or is there another Wendy Lee who thinks she is paying for her bills only to have her amount creditied to me acct?  Or is the hospital just a bunch of stupid devil monkeys (sorry Wendi.... couldn't resist, LOL....)? 

I can say with certain that I will be )($#@@)(%@_$_+$#@ pissed if they try to charge me a office visit co pay for every non stress test when I never see a doctor...  Grrrrrr....  There you go.... no good deed goes unpunished.  And all this stress over 10 freaking bucks....

Night, night!

And made it to my u/s.  Yeay!  Perinatal was the emptiest that I have ever seen it.  I got there early and there was no one else waiting.  It was the same cardiologist that saw Sam.  She didn't remember me.  I told her that was fine because that meant two things.  First, that Sam's problem was not too bad.  Second, we were not a complete pain in the ass.  She laughed.

The baby's heart looked great.  She said that can't guarentee that there won't be a small hole cause the u/s pic is not perfect.  But it means that there is not a major problem.  She felt confident that everything was just fine.  That works for me!

The growth scan also was good.  Baby girl is indeed a baby girl.  She is now measuring two weeks ahead.  Not a surprise since the diabetes is back.  Her biggest things are her thigh bones and her head.  All of my family has big fat heads, so I am not that surprised.  Thick legs do not run in either my family or Ben's so maybe she is just going to have long legs.  At the end of the day, it all balances out so as long as she is healthy, I am fine with it.  She is already 2 lbs 11 oz.  Grow baby grow!

My next growth scan is on January 6th.  And we can definately put off the NST until I am 32 weeks.  Yeay, I get to make it past Christmas with out running back and forth to the hospital 5000x a week.  :)

Little girl Lee is definately a kicker and a mover.  She did not stop moving during both u/s.  I don't know if it is just her or cause she is my 3rd, but I definately feel her move waaaaaaay more than the other two.