After about 5 faint +, last night I started having bad cramping and the spotting became heavier and red.  As you probably can guess, I no longer have a +.  Today I tested again and got -.  For what ever reason, I can't seem to hold onto a pg right now.  So hopefully we will use my rx for Clomid in a few months and then We will get lucky.

I feel so cpmpeteley devestated.  I really, really, really want a 3rd child.  I just KNOW we were meant to have one more.  But instead of wallowing in grief and pity, I am going to pray for my friend Michelle and Gabe - hoping that his surgery went well and for her step father - hoping that his last surgery went well.  And I am going to pray for my friend Margie and her daughter K, and for K's best friend, Melody, who has been put on Morphine and is probably not long for this world.  I think Melody is around 8 and has brain cancer that they can not operate on.  So, any sadness, compassion and empathy that I know you wonderful friends of mine have for me, please give it to my friends instead.