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View Article  I LOVE my boy!

 

 

View Article  Ok, I am not an insensitive jerk but...
I just read something that made me go WTF!!!!!!  Ok, I hope this person does not read my blog and if any of you are offended, none is meant but....

If I were to find out that my teenage son (which I do not have) was molesting my under 3 year old daughter, we would not put off dealing with it cause we were on our way to Disney.  That just sounds INSANE to me!  You daughter is being molested by your son, but you do not want to ruin you family vacation by addressing it??????  What is wrong with that picture????Ok, I have not walked in this person's shoes and I hope that I never do.  But I can say with no hesisitation, that if one of my kids were abusing the other and we find out - FUCK the vacation.  The shit is being dealt with then and there.  OMG!!!Ok, rant done. 
I do hope this family continues to get the help they need.
 
View Article  Clarification...
Ben brought up the subject last night, not me.  I do not hound him about it.  But it is something we have been discussing especially in light of what happened.

I do find it it interesting the mix of responses tho.  And as always, I appreciate the different point of view.

Also, Ben read last night's entry.  He asked if he could.  I wouldn never write something about him that I'd not say to his face.  Just sometimes it is easier to get the thoughts out there with the written word.


I also know that he would never purposely hurt me - but logic and the heart do not always see eye to eye.  When my feeling are hurt, I am writing from emotion.

I appreciate my husband and I love him very much, but that does not mean that he can't make me angry from time to time and/or hurt my feelings.  Like any healthy marriage we are going to have differences in opinions.  It just happens that this particular issue is an importnat one.  So it involves moe because there is more at stake.  It's like everything else in life - pick and choose you battles.  This is one worth pursuing.

At the end of the day, I am a very lucky woman with a wondeful husband and two amazing kiddos.  I know that and I thank God for that every day.  But it's true, I am a little selfish and I want just a little more (about 7 lbs 10 oz...).

Have a good one, I am off to get ready to make some money!
View Article  Men are stupid....
Yeah, I'm grunpy - it is true.  But I just weaned again off the crazy meds (now every other day), I have a nasty cold, I have been spotting then bleeding for 7 days so far, and I generally feel like crap.  And then Ben brings up that he just doesn't know if he wants another baby.

GRRRRR.... can he pick a crummier time?

We have been going back and forth.  All his reason are stupid logic - house not big enough, he doesn't like the infant stage, the hospital sucks, we hae 1 boy and 1 girl, bleh, bleh, bleh.  But I don't care because where I am coming from is my heart.  Then he says that he just thought we were done at 2?  I was like where's ya get that from?  I NEVER said just 2 - I have always talked about at least 3.

Long story short, when we first got together, Ben got upset about something and said to me that if I wanted to be with him that I just had to accept certain things about him.  I thought about that and that was fine and fair enough.  I accepted that 9 years ago.  But now I feel like why isn't the same appilcable to me?

It's not like I haven't always been upfront about wanting a large family.  Shit, before we got pg with Sam, he used to turn green at the thought of being a parent.  And then we had Sam and he fell totallyin love with her.  It literally took me several years of nagging him until he was willing to try (and then it took 2 years to get pg with her).

After Sam was born, I had to argue with him again.  He only wanted one.  He was sure - blah, blah, blah.  Then Kit was born and he now is totally in love with him too.  So WTF?  Do I have to argue with him everytime when he ends up being even happier than he was before.

The funny thing is Ben LOVES being a dad and is a GREAT dad.  So I do not get it.

I am so freaking frustrated.  All I wanted my whole life is to be a mom (which I am and I am so thankful for).  It just doesn't seem fair to deny me one last chance.  And that makes this m/c even more painful because what if that was my last chance?  Not only do I have the loss but now the end? 

Then I get mad because I have NEVER said no to anything Ben has ever wanted.  Ok, none was ever as big as having a baby, but still - I have NEVER said no.  I ahve given up my whole life, packed my bags and moved to Edinburgh with him.  I found a job and supported him when he went to University.  Anything and everything he has ever wanted,,,,grrr,,, and I have never really asked for anything in returm except to have a family.

He says that he has not made his final decision, but if it was a jury , right now there are more no votes then yes.  I know he didn't use this analogy to sound cavalier but it made me want to kick him in the balls.  I am no OJ freaking Simpson.  This is my heart that we are talking about !

I know that I can't make him want to try for another.  But darn it, it he says no then he gets his way - (like always) and I am screwed.  And I feel like that I am going to be resentful the rest of my life.  I have never made any secrets about who I am and what I want.  And it just kills me because I know, I KNOW, that he'd look at all 3 of the kiddos and not be able to imagine what it would be like with out any of them.  I know it! 

He has never been able to visualize what it would be like before the kiddos came - both times.  Before both of their births he kept saying that it seemed really far away until they were actually born.  Maybe it is a guy thing.  But I couild always imagaine and the reality of it was even more beautiful than the dream.  And I know with a 3rd, that it would just be complete.  As a woman, I think we just know.

So why, when he loves me so much, is he willing to break my heart?  How can I make him see?
 
View Article  A Little Diddy (I mean Titty) for you...
Ben got me a web cam to cheer me up.  Last night he finally got around to show me how it works.  Of course I had to make sure the anglel wasn't giving me the super big double chin.  After that was done, Ben wanted to set it up to take a still every 15 mins (the new one would replace the old one).  I was like no freaking way.  I knew every shot would some be my boobs.  Ben argued that was not right.


I then stood up and pulled the boobs out of the nursing gown and there they were.  Well I don't know why, but seeing my boobs from that angle was interesting.  They really are HUGE.  Ben warned me that someone might see, but I had just checked and nobody was watching me.  So I looked at them for a min or two.  Then I had to lift my dress and see what they looked like (hey and I discovered that I had a waist again - WOO HOO!) And then I decided to bounce them.

That is when I got an IM from Carie - letting me know that she was there and yes someone was watching my booby dance.  OMFG - Both Ben and I was laughing so freaking hard.  He couldn't breath and I was crying.  I asked her with trepidation, "How long?????"

"Since you pulled them out of your gown," she answered.  My face turned red and we started laughing even harder.  OMG - what are the chances!!!!!  Carie said she was afraid that we were going to start having sex or something - LMAOPIMP!

So yes folks, I do have a web cam and Carie was the first one I flashed.  So if you tune in, maybe you too will catch The Booby Story, staring me!  LMAOPIMP.

Oh, and Ben conceeded that we would not be doing the still every 15 mins, lol!

When you think you can't embarass yourself any worse and yet you do!  That's me!
View Article  UN-FREAKING-BELIVABLE...
Ok, I have never written about this before because I always try to look at the brighter side of things. 

We have neighbors, that are nice, but take advantage of us all the time.  They have a 7 year old daughter, M, who spends A LOT of time here.  By A LOT of time, I mean she comes over as soon as she crawls out of bed.  Often it is before 7 AM and she is still in her PJs.  I think the parents are still asleep and do not know. 

M comes to our house when she gets home from school as soon as she drops off her book bag.  In the summer, she is here 24-7 - more waking hours than at home.  To say that I feed her dinner 3-5 times a week is an understatement. 

The mom works a lot - not cause they need it but cause staying home drives her nuts.  The dad is home with M when the mom is working, but he likes to go drinking at the bar, so that is how we get her most nights.

M and my kiddos love each other and play and fight like siblings.  So I have just taken M into our lives and treat her like on of my own.  She gets hugs and love and reprimands and everything in between, just like my kiddos do.

Well today M wanted to come to the foodstore with us.  So of course I said yes.  Well the mom was getting ready for work and the dad was supposed to come home at 10 to watch M.  We left for the market at 9:30 and I said that we'd be about 45 mins.

While there, I got M a beanie baby bunny just like my kiddos and said no to all the sugar and crap that she and Sam said she wanted.  Both she and Sam were telling me what they wanted me to get for the week to make them for dinner.  It was fun.  But we got back at 10:30 instead of 10:15.  Also, they have my cell in case they need to get a hold of me.

Well when we got back from the foodstore, neither mom or dad was home.  I didn't say anything to M cause I didn''t want her to feel badly.  I checked to make sure that neither car was there and they were not there.  So I called the house phone a few times and no one answered.  So after 1.5 hours, noon, I finally called each of their cell phones.  Of course, neither of them answered so I left a message, "Uh hello.  It's Wendy.  We've been back from the store for a while now and neither of your cars are there,  So I was just wondering what's going on.  Please call me and let me know."

Five minutes later, the dad pulls in.  By this time M wanted to go home.  When she saw her dad's truck, she got her stuff and said she was ready.  I just let her and shut the door because I really did not want to talk to the dad.  Especially cause I am pretty sure that he was at the bar drinking.  I mean is if there was an emergency, fine, call me.  But there was no call on my cell or at home.  I think they just thought, Yeah Wendy will watch her.  Wendy is the free freaking ride. 

That is such crap.  Am I crazy?  It is just unreasonable crao, right?

View Article  Kick me while I'm down...
So today I got a call from my gyn that my pap shows that I have a bacterial infection on my cervix.  (No not a STD thanks, just an infection.)  I had my appt on the first of Feb.  So now I am on anitbotics.  I guess it's good I know, but BLECH!  And who knows how that played in things.  I mean I will never know why and all that but why give me another factor to torture myself over. 
So I painted some more and my living room now looks fantastic.  At this rate, I will be out of rooms to paint.  I may have to come to one of your houses to shine sinks and paint.I am going to be now cause I am cranky, irratiable and generally not pleasant company.  Grrrr. 
And both the kiddos are sick and full of snot.  My poor muffins.

Pleasant dreams anyway.  I am going to cuddle my kiddos while they sleep before I make it to my bed.  That is the best thearopy when feeling like shit.
View Article  The short sad version.
After about 5 faint +, last night I started having bad cramping and the spotting became heavier and red.  As you probably can guess, I no longer have a +.  Today I tested again and got -.  For what ever reason, I can't seem to hold onto a pg right now.  So hopefully we will use my rx for Clomid in a few months and then We will get lucky.

I feel so cpmpeteley devestated.  I really, really, really want a 3rd child.  I just KNOW we were meant to have one more.  But instead of wallowing in grief and pity, I am going to pray for my friend Michelle and Gabe - hoping that his surgery went well and for her step father - hoping that his last surgery went well.  And I am going to pray for my friend Margie and her daughter K, and for K's best friend, Melody, who has been put on Morphine and is probably not long for this world.  I think Melody is around 8 and has brain cancer that they can not operate on.  So, any sadness, compassion and empathy that I know you wonderful friends of mine have for me, please give it to my friends instead.

Thanks as always for listening.
View Article  Valentines Day...
So today I told Ben and he was grea t with it - but I think he was great with it cause he doesn't really believe it.  His words were something like that I have a million to one chance of conceiving naturally and maintaing with out drugs, so I shouldn't get my heart set.  But if by some miracle I did, then he is thrillled.  He meant this to be supportive but - ouch.  Of couse I told him on the 2 hour drive to the accountant.

Then I started to spot a little, which I did with both Sam and Kit, but Ben's words kept going thru my head.  So now I am just feeling sad.  My temps are still high, I am not cramping, I am still nauseas but what I think I really need is a nice and dark BFP.  I just feel like I want to cry.  I can't explain myself very well, so I am just going to shut up now.

And the funny thing is that we got a $8000.00 refund today, so I should be over the moon.  (I am glad about the money...) 
View Article  Valentines Surprise!
So last night was nice.  Ben and I went out with some of his coworkers for snacks and drinks.  One of them was leaving (all I had was a soda).  Then Ben surprised me with a dozen red roses and chocolate covered strawberries. 
View Article  Shameless bragging...


Aren't they cute?????

So today Sam was using her little vacuum and Baby Kit really wanted to use it.  So I asked Sam to be the good big sister that I know she is and let her brother have a turn.  Well don't you know, she did!  I was SOOOO proud of her and gave her a BIG hug and kiss. 


And then I snapped this photo while they were playing. 
 
 

 

 

 

 

 

View Article  wo kidos and a momma in the big brown chair...

 

 

 

 

 

View Article  Some of the furniture arrived...

And the sofa bed that we bought for the basement is TOO FREAKING BIG to get down there!  And that is the one piece we needed cause it has a bed in it.  So we decided to make our dining room and extension of the family room and have one big GREAT ROOM.  Aside from my China cabinet, the room has our pet bunny, my treadmill and toys in it anyway. 

(oh and when they did get the sofa in the house, the movers ripped it.  Luckily you can't see it but I am still having them send someone out to fix it...)

Once the sectional arrives, we will move the sofa in there.  It will look nice.  I have a dining room table at my parents house in the basement.  It was my grandmother's (the nice one, not evil granny.) But it can stay there for awhile longer.  It's not like Ben and I are formal dining people anyway.  Anyone who is actually invited in our house, knows that we are kick back and relax kinda folk.  Take off your shoes and make yourself at home.


But my BIG CHAIR is here and I love it!!!!  To quote Goldie Hawn from Housesitter, " You could live in this chair!"  I have been so looking forward to each night when the house is quiet so I can sit in it, LOL!
Sam loves to lay back in it with me when I read her stories and it has become Baby Kit's fav place to be nursed.

The chair...

 
 
 
 

 

 

 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 
 
View Article  Why I really like the BOOB sign...

(Suzanne, this is was inspired by you my friend!  SMOOCH!) 

It's such a hard line to define how much to push one over the other, bfing v. formula feeding.   I think what ever route the mom feels is best for their child is the best for them.  But I guess I liked the sign cause I think that bfing needs to be known as ok.
But it does seem that formula commercials are everywhere and just accepted as ok.  Heck, I knew what a COMFORT PROTEIN was even before I knew that it was advertising for formula.  Where are the breast feeding commercials?  LOL

II remember being in the hospital after Kit was born.  Once he spiked a high fever and was fussy, I can't even describe how hard I was pushed to give him formula.  Now at that point, although he had a fever, he was nursing.  He was just fussy cause he had an uncomfortable IV port in his leg.  (Once we took it out, he settled down and showed that he is the sweetest boy...)

I am an older mom, who is very comfy with the fact that I wanted to bf and even I started doubting myself for a minute.  I am just glad that I stuck to my guns.

Most of the women that I know are intelliegent women who weighed all the benefits of breast v. formula and what was best for their families.  I have no doubt that the decision they came to was the best one.  I am proud that my friends online and IRL are such good mommies.

But I think that a sign like this is great for the vast amount of women who maybe are not as educated.  And then their are the women who think it is just embarassing when bfing is just a part of nature.
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View Article  Finally!
So it's true, I've been a bad, bad blogger lately.  *smack hands*


I must admit that I do like the Flylady and she has helped me find my MOJO.  My house looks GREAT!  And most of the clutter is gone!  Even Ben now is looking for hot spots and trying to keep my sink clean.  He even made the bed the other morning when he was the last one to get out!  *falling down in shock*.  I love my DH dearly, but he can be a complete slob, lol.  So making the bed was a BIIIIIIG deal.

The one thing I can't do is keep my shoes on.  I must confess, when I get in the house, I can't wait to peel the clothes off and get in my night gown or nothing at all.  Clothes get on my nerves.  So in public, I do the right thing and where them - but while the kiddos are still little and in the privacy on my own home - screw the clothes!  I know a lot of people feel strange in the buff, but I have no problem with nudity.  Fat and all, I am very comfortable with myself and so is Ben.  I would have made a good renaissance woman - chubby - naked - and artsy fartsy!  Oh well, a year or 2 too late and a dollar or 2 short, lol!


On to the weaning of the crazy meds... I am down to 2.5 mg a day, which is .25 of my pill.  I do get some weirdo things sometimes like hearing something for a sec when nothing is making noise.  Freaked me out.  Reminded me of tripping from yesterdays of yonder.  Well when I was talking to my friiend Jen who I work with, she said she had the same thing happen to her when she forgot her crazy meds for a few days.  We were both like OMG - I thought I was CRAZY!!!!!!  And started laughing.  I mean if you told most people that you briefly heard something that wasn't there, they'd think ya were maybe on the dark side of the moon.  Y'know?


Onward to the family... Sam is getting ready for the even more terrible threes...  She has started full blown temper tantrums.  Well that has been nipped in the bud and Sam has met the go to your room and sit on your bed until you can be nice again.  Well who knew, but it is working!  I have come to the conclusion that Sam is always going to test the limits to see how far she can go.  I think she was getting a little...um... difficult... cause she actually needed me to just put my foot down.  So now that the foot has come down... she is so pleasant again!

Then there is baby Kit who is so pleasant but the king of getting into things he shouldn't.  I was told that little boys are like that but OMG the things he gets into.  Lets see.... he tries to climb in the dryer, the oven, the dishwasher - now all of which are locked.  He climbs up chairs and jumops, he climbs up chairs to sit on the kitchen table and he does all this in the blink of an eye.  And then you say no to him and he flashes that baby doll smile.  *heart melts*

Ben is nervous about his company's merger.  His bosses boss is offically staying and willb e deciding who stays and who goes.  He used to be my boss when I was a rep there.  He likes both of us a lot.  His name is Chris and he always jokes that we named Baby kit for him, lol!  Ben also has a GREAT sales record and everyone likes him.  So I think he is pretty safe, but I understand why he is nervuos, 

Before Ben told me what was on his mind, he was being a bit (A LOT) of a jerk.  He made me SOOOOOOOOO mad on Monday that I told him that I wanted to break all my dishes over his head, but since I can;t do that - I was going to curse A LOT.  He hates when I get mad and curse.  Later when the devil inside me was gone, I told him that he needed to talk to me.  I can deal if something is botehring him but I can't take him just being a jack ass.

That is when he told me what he was thinking and life went back to normal.  Why is it so hard for men to say what is on their minds?



That's all for now....
View Article  Look what I saw today!

View Article  My Kiddos have been ROCKIN...

to The Ramones all morning!!!!  And of course so have I but I will only post the naked pics of them...  Yes, we are nudists here.  (The one part of Flylady that I suck at although I guess I can
wear shoes...)

 

 

 

 

 

 

View Article  Christopher's birth story...

My pregnancy with you was harrowing, to say the least; but not because of you...  rather due to other things.  Samantha was hospitalized when I was 18 weeks pregnant and we were there for a long time.  She was on a vent for over 3 weeks and to say that my nerves were shot, would be an understatement.  I would not leave the hospital while your sister was there, but I never felt alone with you inside me.  The only way I got any sleep was to feel you inside of me.  Even then, you were a source of strength and comfort.

 

I remember the day that we found out what sex you were.  I thought your dad was going to jump put of skin when the tech said, "BOY."  Your dad never said he had a preference of sex, but it quickly became obvious that he did.  J

 

We hadn't picked many boy names, but the few that we did just did not feel like your name.  I was going to sleep when the name CHRISTOPHER popped into my head.  I then put it together with my Uncle's name, Paul.  Christopher Paul  It sounded right to me and I decided to run it by your dad the next day.  He agreed that fit and from then forward you were no longer the baby, you were Christopher Paul.

 

Thankfully you were very healthy when I was pregnant with you.  You were also a big baby.  Because of that, the doctors felt that a repeat c-section would be the best way to bring you into this world.  So we went with their opinion and scheduled a section. 

 

We decided not to do it right before Christmas because we didn't want you ever to feel like your bday got lost in the holiday shuffle and for that reason we didn't choose Christmas day either.  However, the day after Christmas felt like a good day to have a baby Christopher.  We were the first one scheduled.

 

The night before I was so nervous and excited.  Excited to meet you and nervous about surgery.  Your dad slept like a rock (no surprise) but I tossed and turned.  Finally it was time to go.  We were scheduled to be at the hospital by 6 AM.  We were off while Nana and Pop-Pop watched Samantha.

 

When we got there, they took me to Triage and hooked me up to a monitor that kept an eye on you.  It appeared that I was already having very strong contractions and chances were if you weren't already scheduled to make your entrance to the world, you would have been coming soon anyway.  They also hooked up an IV port into my hand.

 

At 8 AM they took me back to the operating room.  We were told that it would be a little while before they let your dad in and while they wheeled me back, they had him change into scrubs.  I was in the room with a few nurses when the anesthesiologist, Dr. Cherry, came in.  I must have looked scared cause he asked what was wrong.  I told him that I was nervous and wished my husband could come in already.  He said that was no problem and your dad was brought right in.  The nurses were amazed and asked who we knew cause no one usually gets to have their spouse with them at this point.

 

I was given a spinal tap.  At first it made me feel VERY strange, but Dr. Cherry gave me something for the nausea and your dad held my hand.  With in minutes I was feeling better.  After they were certain that I was numb, Sr. Sallash arrived and explained what was going on as they started. 

 

I was so calm and happily chatted with your dad and Dr. Cherry.  Before I knew it, Dr. Sallash was telling me that I was going to feel a little pressure as they got the baby out.  There was some pressure but it was hardly noticed once I heard you cry.  I can't even begin to fully describe how my heart was just flooded with love and adoration as I heard you little voice.  I fell so in love with you in an instant.  It was 9:06 AM.  That moment is etched on my memory.

 

The area she checked you was right next to us, so I was able to look at your beautiful face.  On your ABGARS, you got a 10 both times.  This nurse said that she doesn't often give 10's.  Everyone agreed that you were just so beautiful.  After she checked you, she brought you over to your dad and me.  We just looked at you, kissed you and talked to you.  I couldn't wait for them to stitch me back up so that I could nurse you.

 

Your dad went with you when the docs put me back together.  They were going to knock me out, but I requested to stay awake.  I wanted to be alert and able to nurse you as soon as I was allowed. 

 

It was a little after 11 when you were brought to me.  You latched on immediately and the feel of you felt perfect.  I held you until it was time for you to get your first bath.  The rest of the stay at the hospital I had you with me every second that I could.  And I continue to love you more and more as each day passes.

View Article  I'm gonna wash that grey right out of my hair...
I'm gonna wash that grey right out of my hair...
I'm gonna wash that grey right out of my hair...
I'm gonna wash that grey right out of my hair...
I'm gonna wash that grey right out of my hair...
Pulling the grey from your hair before you color it defeats the purpose of coloring it.  So since last time, I have had to watch the stupid grey grow in.  Of course most of it is right in the front, so as I watched it grow, it was so freaking obvious to me - mocking me.  Yes folks, I am no longer sexy and seventeen... *sigh*

So here I sit, with the goop on my head, stinking of hair dye, but soon to be no longer grey!
View Article  CrAzY MeDiCiNe...
So today I had my first symptom.  I was in the car with the kids waiting for Ben.  We were on our way to my P/T appt.  He was coming with to watch the kiddos while I got tortured and then I was going to drop him back at work.  He was late, naturally, because it was late in the day and we were bound to catch the afternoon traffic. 

So there I was waiting in the car outside his work, listening to the kiddos chattering while eating a burger.  That's when I noticed that every time I moved, I felt like someone was tapping my eye from the inside.  At first I thought it was just my eye twitching, so I looked in the rear view mirror waiting for it to twitch.  Nothing.  And then I'd turn my head.  TAP, TAP, TAP.  So I'd look again.  Nothing.  Once again I'd move my head to look away.  TAP. TAP. TAP.

Now I felt the anxiety come on.  Why Was  my eye tapping?  WTF?!  And then I felt my chest tighten up.  OK, I can't freak out cause the kids are right here in the back seat, I thought
.  Ok Wendy, I told myself, Remember the days of smoking pot and getting paraniod.... breath.  What's making you whig... 
Ok, that was easy, the eye tapping was freaking me out.  So why would my eye be tapping.... Hmmm... Maybe cutting my crazy meds down???  Ok, that made sense.  Why else would I feel anxiety?.  Ben was late.  That made sense.  Reasonable and understandable.  And then the fact that my pet had died not even an hour ago, may have been contributing as well.   At that point, I once again used my Lamaze breathing to help calm down.  Can I say, that was the best $75.00 I ever spent.  I use that stage one breathing for all sorts of things...but I digress...

By the time Ben got to the car, I was calm.  I told him about the crazy eye tapping and we were on our way.  At P/T, the eye tapping continued but I walked well on the treadmill and when my therapist tortured me, I just stared at the ceiling feeling my eye go, TAP, TAP, TAP.  At that point I decided that maybe the reduction of the meds was causing my nerves to send out crazy pulses - similar to an eye twitch. 

So once I got home, fed the kids, played with the kids, read stories, changed diapers, brushed teeth and got them to sleep, I started searching the web.  After reading A LOT of crap, I found a few sites on weaning the crazy meds and the plan I came up with was a sound one.  I got the ok from my doc at my last appt to try to wean when ever I wanted, but the weaning schedule that they gave me seemed to fast.  So I am going to wean my way, the Wendy way.


I really do want to be med free.  It just seems to me that too many docs are too easy about dispensing the crazy meds with out telling about the hardship of weaning.  I do not know if I would have taken it if I knew what I now know.  It's like legal drug pushing of the big drug companies.  It has really opened my eyes in a rather unpleasant way.  If drugs are going to be pushed on me, I'd rather have my all natural, non addictive marijuana thank you very much.  I mean people are now legally getting hooked on this legal shit but I can't smoke a joint cause that is against the law.  I smoked pot for a LOOOOOOONG time and not once did I ever suffer ANY withdrawal after I stopped.  And we stopped cold turkey a good while before we started TTC.  (I just ate a hell of a lot of snacks sometimes when I was stoned, lol!)

Ok, rant over.
View Article  Clarifiacation...
One of my IRL pet rabbits died. Basil was a lovely black mini lop. He is survived by Willow, my grey mini lop. Although I must say that both times I got pg one of my pet bunnies died. But as it stands now, not pg, just sad.
View Article  A few Random Blurbs...
Off to P/T I go. I still feel like a truck hit me the next day. But on a good note, so far so good with weaning off the crazy meds!!!!!!

And last night, for the first time, Baby Kit started kicking his legs out, like he was doing the Can Can when Sam, Kit and I were dancing around and then he started spinning. Sam and I clapped for him and cheered YEAY. He then started clapping and was SOOO proud of himself.

And finally, I decided to check out the new preschool today cause I was afraid of it getting filled (crazy but the good ones fill fast and early) and Sam LOVED it. She did not want to leave. Baby Kit actually had a good time too! The school room is great! It has different stations that change every week with the theme. For example the sand box now is filled with sand and dinasours now, but in March might be filled with a little water and boats. There is even a computer station with 4 computers for the kids! Each day one student is the student of the day. He/She gets her name on the board and gets to be the teachers helper. They will go over the month, day of the week and weather every class. It is really like early Kindergarden. It is 2/3 structured and 1/3rd free play. Each child gets one on one time to work on where they are individually. The ratio is 1 teacher to 6-8 students. I feel it will be a really good environment of nuturing and a good balance of social interaction and education.

OMG one of my rabbits just died. Crap...

View Article  Random thoughts...

I hope that Gabe is feeling better.  I hope that is surgery gets scheduled soon.  Lots of prayers for Michelle and Gabe.Work was BUSY tonight.  I made $165.00 in 5 hours!  WOO HOO!!!!My p/t therapist for my back is a JACK ASS and I DO NOT like him.  His assistant is ok though, so I am going to ask to be with her.  There is one exercise that I have been given to do - or as MR. JACK ASS says - HOMEWORK - once a freaking an hour.  Uh, like, I have kids and a life.  I am not just hanging aounc counting the clock.  FREAKING MORON!

Also while on p/t - my back and body is KILLING me WORSE than before I started.  WTF is up with that????  I go again on Friday and if it still hurts, I'm going to ask to see my doc right there.  Last night I actually had spasms wake my sorry butt up.
Ben once again missed being sick.  (Lucky Bastard!)  Kit, Sam and I are still recovering.  Fevers are gone, but we are still tired.  Kids cranky.  Enough of being sick.
Margie, keep applying for nursing school,  You WILL get in!

I have decided to cut back on my crazy medicine.  I am currently on 10 mg of Lexapro.  I have started cutting the pills in half and so far I am ok.  I plan on weaning SLOWLY.  Of course I searched teh web on weaning off antidepressants and the info I found was PETRIFYING!  Zaps, swooshing, flu, CrAzY ThOuGhTs.... yikes!  But I really do not want to be on my crazy meds forever, so I am going to try and see what happens.  If it gets too hard - I dunno!  Anyone readers have any input here?
Looking into a new preschool for Sam for next year.  This one is closer, costs less and seems to offer more.  We go for a visit on Feb 8th.

Yes Kristin men are the biggest babies when sick.  Hope you DH is feeling better.
Speaking of sick - Jess are you better?  Leanna, how is your migrane?
While thinking of friends, wondering how Anna and the baby are doing?  Linda, if you are lurking, update me when you can.
Tasty cake makes GREAT low carb treats,  YUM!  Speaking of food, Jen - How is Logan's eating going? 

Kyra thanks for passing on Ben's resume to Greg.
My friend Holly's almost 13 year old daughter ROCKS!  She is an almost teen with common sense...
Gyspy Mel - WHERE ARE YOU? 

Today is my friend Jen's bday.  HAPPY BDAY JEN!!!!!!!!!

My eyes are rolling in the back of my head now....

View Article  Sick again!
I swear, we have been sick more this winter then ever before!  Kit spiked a fever of 102.3 Thurs. night.  I treated him w/ Motrin and waited for other symtoms.  On Friday, I started sneezing and not feeling well.  By Friday night, we both were congested and had fevers.  And now today, Sam woke up sneezing and has a fever.  Once again, Ben skates by!  Lucky guy!

What stinks, is that I usually do not get sick often.  This winter I have been sick more than I was sick in the past 10 years!  And what really, really stinks is that I have been waiting for a great snow storm - where we get snowed in and Ben is off work - so we could play in the snow and drink hot cocoa.  Well we finally one and Kit and I were too sick to enjoy it!  I was in bed by 8 o'clock.

So someone please pass the cheese cause I am having some whine!


View Article  Stupid people...
I strongly dislike people who think they know what you need more than you do.

Today Sam's school was cancelled because of the snow and Baby Kit's music class was delayed by an hour.  This actually worked out well because my back doctor decided that I needed an MRI.  It was scheduled for today at 1 o'clock.  Due to the bad weather, I did not want Ben to drive the pimp-mobile to work because it has rear wheel drive and handles like complete crap in the bad weather.  So with the change of schedule today, it allowed me to drop him off at work, take the kids for a quick meal at the diner, go to music class, get Ben from work to go to the MRI with me to stay with the kiddos and to go home and hand off the car to Ben.  He was scheduled late tonight and this meant that I didn't have to drag them out of bed to get him.

Ben got dropped off with ease and the kiddos and I had a great time at the diner.  They both were very good and they were cracking all the old people up.  This particular diner is very good, but also very inexpensive and is always filled with TONS of old people.  We then made it to music class on time as well.

It seems that all the moms chat in the beginning of class.  Well the music teacher, Miss Opinionated, heard me say that I was having an MRI.  She asked why.  I explained that I have a bulging disk and they want to get a good look at it.  She immediately starts telling me that I should see a chiropractor.  She sees a chiropractor and NEVER has trouble with her back. 

First I try explaining that I have seen a chiropractor before, which I had when I was pregnant with Sam.  My back was sore and I was having muscle spasms.  The chiropractor was great.  But this is a different type of pain.  I need a doctor.

No, no, no - insists Miss Opinionated.  A chiropractor can fix anything.  All I need is an adjustment.  I further explained that I am comfortable with the decisions I have made concerning my back.  She goes on to say that I should give the chiropractor a chance and she knows a great one.

"No thanks, " I smiled and walked away.

WTF?????  Do I look stupid or something?  Am I not capable of knowing what I need?  I supposed this irked me as much as it did because we had a similar conversation when I had the nerve to listen to my pediatrician and put Baby Kit on antibiotics when he had a double ear infection.  How could I?  Antibiotics are SOOOO bad.  I should have just tried natural remedies and I should use vitamin supplement for him.  *Roll eyes*

What is funny, is that I am pretty earthy crunchy.  I do not believe in over medication.  Our family doctor is a DO not a MD.  I breastfeed, I believe in attachment parenting, I listen to my kids and work around their needs instead of opposing my schedules onto them.  I read about everything concerning my kids.  I question everything and I am involved in their medical care.  Ben and I are proactive in our own medical care.  So having Miss Opinionated condescend to me for not being earthy crunchy enough is kind of funny.

I think arrogance annoys me more than stupidity.  At least stupid people are not full of pretense!
Other news...

The MRI went fine and I did not freak out.  I was VERY nervous about being closed in.  Although I did forget to take out my belly ring.  Oooops!

And today Sam discovered the top bunk bed.  I convinced her not to sleep up there tonight.  We will see how long that lasts.

Oh and today Sam noticed my pad when we were in the public restroom - Af is here- and announces MOMMA YOU HAVE A DIAPER LIKE BABY KIT!  Immediately followed by a few chuckles on the other side of the stall.
View Article  Six degrees of Seperation...
Ok, I was reading in my friend's blog, Mom of Mister and Sister's blog, and she was blogging about a woman who's blog she has read for awhile.  Her name is Tertia and she just gave birth to twins.  I was wishing that Mom of Mister and Sister had a link cause I would have liked to read it.

I then was at another friend's blog, K-Rock's blog, and started reading her links.  It was when I was reading one of her linked blogs, a person who has nothing to do with Mom of Mister and Sister, that I got freaked out.  Dn't you know that he had also blogged about Tertia and her babies.   And can you believe that he had a link to Tertia's blog. 
Is that just not too freaking weird?  I mean out of the blogs out there on the world wide web both people were blogging about the same gal?   When they are complete strangers to each other!  Then to boot, I got the link to this woman?  Strange. 
View Article  Back from the doctors...

I finally made it to the back doctors today for my back. Ben made me make an appt because it has been giving me trouble. I guess it has on and off since Sam was born. I personally would have blown it off cause I just would have. Sure it hurt a lot sometimes but so do lots ot things, lol. But he felt strongly about it, so I made an appointment.

So it turns out that I have a buldging disk in my lower spine. I was like WTF? So I am starting some medicine and PT. We are going to take this course for 6 weeks and see how it goes. If it doesn't help or gets worse then the next step is a MRI and traction for a month, Yuck! For traction, I would be on my back and basically streched for 25 mins a day, 5 days a week for a month or longer. Granted, it would be nice to get a little cat nap 5x a week - what a pain in the ass it would be to arrange. What exactly am I to do with the kids for 25 mins 5x a week?

I am hoping that the PT and meds work. I guess it is one step at a time - but I certainly want to take care of it. I cetainly do not want it to rupture, lol. And I am very glad that I listened to Ben and went to the doctor. Who knew?

So that is my big news for today. Blech!

View Article  Paint Pro 7...
I am FINALLY getting the hang of it WOO HOO!!!

Ok, now family news...

Baby Kit has started playing a new game where he makes 2 stuffed animals go face to face and then makes kissing sounds (lips smacking).  It is too cute!  


On to Sam... Sam gets in these moods sometimes.  Today she pitched a fit cause I had the nerve to put on her big girl panties.  (Oh no!  I am so mean, lol!)  Well after she pitched her fit, I asked her what was wrong.  She said, "Momma made me mad.  She put on my big girl panties cause she doesn't love me and that made me get the hiccups."  Boy was it hard not to laugh at that!  The logic of 2 year plds...LMAO.

Ok, I am off for now to play with the kiddos!
View Article  Too much work

and now I'm too tired to write anything interesting.  Ben kept me up last night, but he did give me 2 orgasms back to back - so I can't complain!  WOO HOO!  Lucky me!  So anyway, after having the kiddos all day and working tonight, I am tired now!

Nitey nite!

View Article  Blogdrive has been pissing me off today!
WTF?  Haven't been able to get in MOST of the day!  If upgrades or something was going to be done, uh, some freaking notice would have been nice!
Oh yeah, and I LOVE that all my comments have been deleted.  Is that a little something extra cause that all we get?  And yes, I am an idiot who actually pays a small fee to do extra crap.  I feel my money's worth today!
That's ok.  Now I've created a back up blog.  If I keep getting pissed, I'll just move.  GRRRRR!!!!!!!
View Article  Nine years ago today...
Ben and I were living in a crappy little apartment in North Wildwood, NJ.  Unlike normal shore winter weather, Wildwood had been declared an official "State of Emergency" a few days ago.  We were in the thick of the Blizzard of 1996.  Being a shore town, Wildwood was not set up for snow.  There were no snow plows, let alone preparation for 3 feet of snow.

On the morining of Tuesday January 9th, I woke up in a state of trepidation after a fretful nights sleep.  I watched the clock tick away, slowly and painfully, waiting for it to turn 9 o'clock.  That is when the court house was scheduled to open.  But being that we were still in a State of Emegency, there was no way to know if they would open or not.

Normally the courthouse being open was nothing to agonize over, but on this specific day it was important,  Very Important.  Today was the day of our secret American Wedding.  All our close family and friends knew that we were getting married in Scotalnd on Febraury 3rd; but, what no knew was that we were having a secret Amercian Wedding.  It was going to be us and two friends who were going to bare witness.  Ben and I fell so feverishly in love and even though most everyone who knew us was sure we were destined to fail - we knew better.  We wanted to be legally and bindly married in both our countries like we already were in our hearts.

So as I watched the ice from my window, the ticking of the clock seemed to take forever until it was 9 o'clock.  As soon as the hand turned 9, my fingers dialed the courthouse's phone number as quickly as my fingers could dial.  I felt the butterflies in my stomach dance around frantically until someone finally answered.

"Your open?" I asked hesistantly.

"Yes," a friendly voice answered.
And by 9:15 Ben and I and our two friends were at the courthouse.  We walked into the large courthouse that may have been physically empty but was filled with love.  Five minutes later, we were Mr. and Mrs. Benjamin Lee.

And here we are 9 years later.  Happy Anniversary to us!
View Article  The week from hell...
Tuesday's car accident is old news.   So then Weds arrived with a bad ice strom, but the trooper I was, I went to work.  My trainee called out cause she had the stomach flu.  And then my friend Jen called out.  It was just me.  I figured, how busy could it be with an ice storm?  Well don't you know, the restaurant filled up.  I was working 10 tables when I heard my phone beep.  When I grabbed my cell, I saw that I had 10 text messages from Ben.  I quickly pulled one up and saw something about puke.  So I put my hands free on and called home as I continued working my tables. 


The short was that Baby Kit had a stomach bug.  He has been projectile vomiting for awhile.  Ben never had the kids on his own when they have been sick.  So in-between, can I help you, here is your food, be right over with your soda.... I was explaining, not to give Baby Kit anything until he has stopped vomiting, after an hour has gone by start giving him a table spoon of water every 10 minutes and if he keeps that down, then to call me back for the next set of instructions.  Also telling him how to look for signs of dehydration and if if Baby Kit gets really bad to call 911.  My work is 25 mins from home and of course I had the car with the kid's car seats.

I looked like a crazy person talking to myself as I went from table to table.  And then there was the blue flashing of my handsfree that intrigued everyone.  By the end of the night, all of my customers knew that I had a sick baby at home.  And my cowokers were in love with my cordless handsfree and phone. 

So once thing slowed down, I ran to the pharmacy across the street some Pedaylite ice pops and then drive home with zero visiability.  What normally took 20-25 minutes took almost an hour.

As soon as I walked in the door, my boy had his hands up for me to take him.  After a few hours, I got him to sleep.  Did I mention that I was having company the next day and where I was supposed to be making food for the next day and cleaning up, my house was now smelling of vomit?

So Ben and I started cleaning as I cooked.  We were having a belated Christmas celebration with my wack-a-doodle and her husband and my parents.  I called my family and warned them the Kit was sick, but they said no problem.  Finally, very late, we finished cleaning and most of my food was made.  All I needed to do the next day was heat it and make my cesaer salad.  So off to bed we went.  (It goes with out saying that as soon as we laid down, Baby Kit woke up and wanted to sleep with mommy.  Luckily he only barfed once and it was breast milk.  Not that any barf isn't gross, but for some reason, this didn't bother me.,..)

So Thusday rolled around too quickly.  School was cancelled for Samantha cause all the ice.  We took Kit to his well baby visit.  Oddly enough, we did have a well baby visit scheduled for Thurs., which worked out well with the timing of his tummy bug.  On a good note, Kit is now in the 90th precentil for height at 31.5 inches and 70th for weight at 24 lbs.  He is waaaay ahead of everything (of course, lol!) and the docs were so pleased.  The doc asked me if I was still bfing on demand as well as Kit eating 3 meals a day.  I said I was still bfing.  He said that great and that when it came to bfing they liked for the moms to decide when they are ready to wean.  That pleased me.  I like docs who are on the same page as me w/ bfing.  I firmly believe that  kids let you know when they are ready for the next stage.  Sam was ready to wean at this age, Kit is not.

So we were hopeful that luck was beginning to change.  We got home and I got the baked penne in the oven and the kids to sleep on the sofa with me while listening to some classical.  Ben was settling in to play a game on the computer when all of a sudden the power went out!  So I called the elelctric company and they said that the power should be back on at around 6.  It was currently 12.  The question was how am I going to finish making lunch? 

Ben then thought of the idea to finish making my baked penne in the bbq, which was in the garage.  So I was now serving BBQ Baked Penne.  But it worked!  I got out many candles and opened ever window blind.  It made a unique atmosphere, but it was fun.  Wack-a-doodle and her DH were very generous with the kiddos.  They made out, once again, like bandits!  They had a good time playing.

As we were winding down, I called the electric company again to get an update and the power was now not scheduled to come back on until Sat.  I started to laugh.  Everyone asked why I was laughing.  I explained about when the power was going to come back on.  They thought that was an odd thing to laugh at.  I further explained that it meant we were going to stay at a hotel and have a mini vacation!  Ben thought I was nuts, but in seconds I was on the phone and found a hotel that was 20 mins away.  They had a suite with a kitchen, a pool and were going to give us a discount rate of 107 opposed to their 145 cause we were having electric problems.  Cool!

So I packed up everyone, our stuff and our food.  Ben said I was bringing too much crap.  But there was no way that I was leaving tons of food in the fridge to go bad and stink the place up. It either was going with us or in the trash.  The same with the freezer.  Ben was a little crabby; but, my feeling was that there are just things that happen in life.  You have to roll with the punches, make the best of it and make a memory of it.  This was going to be one of those times.

Once we got the hotel Ben brightened up.  After we unpacked, we got changed and went swimming!  It was fun.  It was a little pool with no life guard and we were the only ones there.  Sam was like a little fish.  Baby Kit cried at first, but we sat on the step for awhile until he got used to it.  Before long, he was splashing and laughing.  An hour later, we decided it was time to go home.  We got out and dried the kiddos off first.  Ben wanted to change into his sweats,  So in a corner, he peeled off his suit and started to change. 

"What are you doing?" I asked.

"Changing, " he answered.  "There is no one here."

"Maybe," I said pointing to two survaliance cameras.  "But that doesn't mean that security isn't getting quite the show!"  We both started laughing and he put his pants on really fast.

When we got to the room, it wasn't long before Sam started saying that she had bugs.  We thought she had a stuffed nose.  I picked her up to wipe her nose when she projectile vomited across the floor.  That was the start of a VERY long evening for poor Sam.  She vomitted so many times, spiked a fever and had the chills.  Ben slept with Sam on the sofa and I had the boy with me in the bed.  Not that I didn't wake everytime she got up.

At about 9 PM, I knew that I wasn't feeling well, but I was despartley trying to talk myself out of it.  As the eveing went on it got worse and worse.  I was laying next to Baby Kit praying that I wasn't going to puke all over him.  Well around midnight, the vomit won.  Between Sam and I, we used every trashcan as well as visiting the toliet two dozen times.  Then the other end decided it wanted to go on me.  I told Ben that when I had a "CODE S" that meant that puke went into the trashcan cause my ass wasn't getting up.  I sat for a long time with a bucket between my legs.  GROSS.

The best way I can describe it is it felt like when you drank too much and were going to puke.  Only when you are drunk, you have distorted time and it doesn't seem like it was as long as it was when you look back on it.  When you are just sick, you are aware of every painful minute.  This wasn't quite the min vacation I was thinking about!

Sam and I both spiked fevers.  The next day, she slept ALL day.  Ben was great with the kiddos and really tried to get me sleep.  Any man who will let his kids puke all over him and not complain is ok with me.  With me being so sick too, I needed him to take care of Sam.  Sam's fever finally broke yesterday.

Late yesterday our power came back on.  The hotel was so nice and only charged us for one day even though we were there way past check out.  Everyone was so glad to be home.  I did too much though and my fever went thru the roof.  I was under 3 blankets and still shivering to no end.  I slept from 5 PM last nite until 8:30 AM (With getting up to boob the boy and settle Sam a few times).  Can I tell you, I am still tired!

Today Baby Kit is eating but pooping a lot and it is loose.  Sam is just quiet but no fever.  She just napped for 4 hours.  And I am taking Tylenol and still feel a little quesy. 

I spoke with my mom this morning.  My dad, Wack-a-doodle, and her DH all started puking yesterday.  Today my mom started as well.  Also, our neighbor's daughter got it and Ben said he is beginning not to feel so well. 

Hopefully next week will be brighter? 



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View Article  MIA...
Kit got the stomach buh on Weds nite.  Our power went out yesterday and wasn't to be back on for days.  We had make arrangements to stay else where.  And then last night Sam and I came down w/ the stomach flu.  Can we say A LOT of vomit?

I will blog more later and give more details.  This week has really sucked.
View Article  Car Accident today...
On the way to work, I stopped at the stop sign.  Well the car behind me did not.  When it happened, I got out of the car.   The car behind me had a smashed bumper.  Luckily the car was lower than my SUV and my car was pretty much untouched.  There was a bit of the other car's paint on the bottom of my bumper.

I asked the man if he was ok and he said yes.  He then started to ramble.  I ingored his rambling so I could access the situation.  He was fine, I was fine, his car had damage and mine was fine.  The accident was his fault 100%.  So I asked him if he wanted to call the police.  He said no and started rambling more.  I cut him off and said, "It's ok buddy."  He then got quiet.  I shook his hand and said, "Happy New Year.  Consider this your gift, but be more careful."  I then got in my car and drove off.  I decided to give the guy a break.  Good karma brings on good karma.  So I am putting  out good vibes, y'know?

I was startled so I called Ben.  Ben was upset, but once I reassurred him that I was ok, he felt better.  I felt I was lucky cause I was fine and so was the car, but most importantly, I was lucky cause the kiddos weren't with me.  I would NOT have been so calm and compassionate if my kids were in the back.

I was wearing my seat belt, so I was whipped around a little.  At work, I was busy and I was training a new girl, so I didn't really stop.  But now that I am home, the kiddos are in bed and I have had time to relax a bit, I am beginning to hurt.  I do not think that anything is dire, I just think I have a bit of whip lash.  My middle back is sore and my neck on the left side and the back is stiff.  I just hope that I do not get too stiff.  Cause in trying to be a nice guy, we did not swap info.  Oh well, I am sure that I will be fine... just a little stiff.

Life is never dull!
View Article  Training toliets...
I love being a parent and I can handle most things...  I don't blink an eye to projectile vomit.  Blood, guts and emergencies are handled without faltering.  The runniest of diapers get chucked in the trash bin with out breaking a sweat.  But the one thing that I can't stand is children training potties.

Ok, the pee is pretty easy - empty, wipe and off we go.  But the shit aint so freaking easy!  There is no easy way to dump it.  It stinks.  And it always manages to get on me and make a mess!  GROSS!  FREAKING GROSS!!!!!!!

Sam is great with going on the potty, but she only likes to poop on her potty.  So her potty is still better than her pants.  So I smile and tell her, "good girl."  She is a good girl and doing what she should, but when I clean that thing - I may be smiling on the outside, but on the inside I am screaming, "YUCK, YUCK, YUCK, YUCK!!!"


And for those of you who don't have kids, when people tell you the training toliets aren't gross... DO NOT BELIEVE THEM!  LOL!  Cause they are freaking disgusting!
View Article  Sex for gifts and money sounds like prostetution to me...
As most of you know, I post on a playgroup board.  Recently, a poster, who i am sure meant no harm, pissed me off.  I have been steaming over this for a few days now, so I am going to vent here!


Originally there was a post about if your husband bought you flowers.  That was a fine post.  Lots of answers.  Most men didn't, but a few did.  Interesting and fun.  Well then another poster, the one who pissed me off, makes a post how she feels bad for us - most the women on the board - cause our husbands don't buy us stuff.  She then goes on to say how her husband does and she finds that she gets gifts for sex.  (The poster who pissed me off does NOT read my blog BTW!  lol!)

Of course, I posted something PC or I'd get myself in trouble.  But what I wanted to post was "WTF?  Presents for sex?  Sounds like a protestute to me!  You feel badly for ME?  My husband doesn't need to buy sex from me, cause I give it freely.  I am married to the most tender, loving, intelligent and strong man I know!  He is my husband, lover and best friend wrapped up in one.  I don't need to be bought because if I want something, he freely gives it to me.  We don't play games.  Don't want to and don't need to.  My husband and I were able to make it through both the best and worst times together and here we are still standing strong 9 years later.  Don't you freaking judge me or pity me!"

I just found her post to be so freaking snotty and better than thou.  Different things work for different people.  Why judge me?  And I HATE when people only think their way is best.  I respect that is how they feel, but do NOT push it on me!  BLECH! BLECH! BLECH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!


And I felt like saying as well that if she wanted to brag about her husband then that is fine.  Make a post about something like LETS BRAG ABOUT DH'S..."  But why the heck make a post so superior and snotty.   GRRRRRRRRRRRR...........................


Ok, I have vented.  Now just a reminder... this is MY blog and this is MY vent.  I know many of you who read my blog, read the board too, but this is for here.  :)  SMOOCHIES!
View Article  A quick brag...
Ben and I have wanted a nice, new posh tv now for awhile.  But for what we wanted, we would easliy be spending $1000.00 or more.  No matter how we have tried to justify it, there is no justification for such a purchase right now.

Well when we went to get Baby Kit's year photos done at Sears, Ben was looking in the TV dept. w/ Sam while I was making the boy smile.  When we were done, Ben asked me to come look at something.  It was a used Samsung, 32 inch., HDTV with a flat panel screen.  I think he expected me to say no way, but when I saw the word USED - I knew that bartering was VERY possible.  The TV had a few dings, but it was a 32 inch, flat panel, hdtv!


So, I went to the salesman and said I had a few questions about a TV and brought him over.  As nice as pie I asked about the warranty.  He told us that it had the same warranty as the new TVs.  I then nicely asked about the price, which I thought was too high. 

The salesman immediately starting saying that it was already reduced and that there is no way that they would go lower.  Well that is when Ben knew to become bad cop to my good cop.  We have done this before and that is how we bought my SUV below cost, lol.

Well before you knew it, the salesman revelaed that the TV had no remote control or manuel as well.  He was whole-heartedly agreeing that it was overpriced and that we would be doing him a favor by taking it off their hands.  He then explained that he was just the assistant manager and only the manager could approve a further markdown.  So he took our name and number and we took his.

The next day Ben called and went back and forth with the manager.  Well, today Ben picked up our new TV, which we got for 70% off!  WOO HOO!!!!  We got this bad boy for $300 bucks!!!!  Can you hear me screaming WOO HOO!!!!!!!!!  And we don't need the remote cause our TIVO remote will do the job just fine and we got the manuel online for free!  WOO HOO!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

The kids were so excited with the new TV that when we brought in the house, they started hugging it.  I must confess, I wanted to hug it too!  So I am now off, to watch my new, used TV!!!!!