By the time Ben got home last night, I was tucked up in bed watching a movie and Sam was asleep next to me.  I turned off every light, locked the door and shut every baby gate.  I hope he tripped...
So he came upstairs and said he brought me a present.  I said I was not interested and that he needed to go away cause Sam was sleeping.  So after the movie, I went to sleep too.  At some point Ben moved Sam to her bed and came to bed.  Every time he tried to cuddle me, I told him to leave me alone.  He said he was sorry.  I told him to leave me alone.
This morning he got up with the kiddos even tho it was my turn.  Sam got up first and Baby Kit slept late.  I came down when Baby Kit woke.  Afer we got the kids settled, we went in the kitchen to talk.  He said he was REALLY sorry and to prove it, he was going to get up every morning for a week with the kids.  We usually take turns.  He said this was to prove it cause I said words were cheap and actions speak louder than words.  He said this was an action to show me.

So, I got the apology, but you know what? I am still hurt and I have not forgiven him. I told him that it makes me wonder what else he says and does behind my back. And that hurts so deep because I have always had siuch a blind and loving faith in him. It's not divorce court here, but it is going to take me some tiime to get past this.  I just feel SOOOOO betrayed.