Last night Sam and her best buddy M asked if M could sleep over. I said yes, as I have in the past when they asked. Thus far, it never lasted more than an hour. Well last night at 9:30 they were still clucking around - very funny to listen to the conversation of a 3 year old and a 7 year old! So I went in and told them it was time to be quiet. It took a little time of monitoring them, but by 10:00 they both were fast asleep and slept thru til this morning! I am shocked!
Sam just started sleeping in the top of her bunk bed and they both were fast asleep in it last night. AWWWWWWWWW....
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Monday, May 30
Saturday, May 28
Additional on the TV...
by
welee
on Sat 28 May 2005 09:16 AM PDT
Yes, this tv is the heavily discounted floor model that we paid $317.00 for. It is a 32 inch HDTV that ran about $1000.00 at the time. So we are now getting a NEW TV at no additional cost, so it looks like we got a brand freaking new 32 inch HDTV for $317.00 and yes, that included tax!
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~*~*~*~Happy dance~*~*~*~* Friday, May 27
Ok, now I come up 8th for
by
welee
on Fri 27 May 2005 09:15 AM PDT
HORNY MOMS GALLERY. OMG!!! I didn't think my blog was that interesting... lol!
A few various ramblings....
by
welee
on Fri 27 May 2005 09:14 AM PDT
Yesterday was spent baby sitting our expenses. First, we had to cancel our Citibank card because there was a weird charge on it. So they issued us a new one. Luckily there were only 3 charges on it to be switched over. Well the first charge of $3.03 transferred over fine. Well the other two charges of 16.something and 19. something transferred over and then a total of the two transferred over as a transfer balance. So we called Citibank. I had to speak to THREE people and after 45 minutes, the third rep finally got it but said she couldn't do anything until they next day cause the statement hadn't been cut yet. GRRRRR...
Then there is my STUPID insurance. I have an EPPO which works kinda like and HMO only I can see doctors out of network at 60%. When I hurt my back, I found a GREAT in network doc. He first sent me to PT. The faculty is in network, they called to verify my benefits - which are 100%. So I went. Well, I am still battling charges with them from the end of Jan and the beginning of Feb cause they have only paid it at 60%. I have spoken to 10 people, most of which find that they ARE in network, then resend the claim only to NOT have it paid. I contacted the PT people and there is a nice woman there who is writing a corporate letter of appeal. I wish I could say this is a one off with my health insurance, but it is not. I have constantly had to baby-sit them. It makes me wonder how many people pay for lots of stuff they shouldn't have to. The good news is that we finally settled with the hospital from when they used Latex on me after Sam was born. The settled amount is ten grand. Of course the lawyer gets 40%, but when I got the check for us to endorse, they listed a bunch of other charges that were to be deducted from our settlement - office charge $250.00, postage $40.00... but the kicker was the court costs of $155.00 and the medical records of $110.00. The reason they were the kickers is because we PAID for them when they came up! The court cost was actually $155.00; however, the medical records was $114.37. So I have one of the checks and I am getting a copy of the other from the bank so that I can send the correct adjusted amount owed to us with proper documentation. Ben says that it shouldn't be a problem; but of course I worry. I mean it is only and additional $300.00 but that is a lot to us and why should I pay for something twice? It just gets frustrating that so many people SUCK at their jobs. I mean when I was working professionally, I always took great pride in doing a good job. I always followed thru on what I said I was going to do. I just never knew it was an option not to. Even now waitressing, I always try to do the very best I can. It bewilders me that so many people can just be sloppy and still have their jobs. And it gets so tiresome to have to constantly baby-sit everyone else! But since it is my money involved, I baby sit! Speaking of cash, I have picked up 2 shifts this weekend - one tonight and one Monday night. Hopefully it will be profitable! Other news, our beatiutful new TV is acting up. Grrr... But a repairman is coming out and it is still covered under warranty. He did say if it is the color tube that we get a brand new TV! WOO HOO!!!!!!!! A quick brag: Yesterday Sam tells me that Baby Kit is being DISRUPTIVE. Her language skills just blow me away!!!!! I am now off to go play with the kiddos who are playing dress up so nicely together! Monday, May 23
We must have been on Candid Camera...
by
welee
on Mon 23 May 2005 09:13 AM PDT
So Ben and I went on a date and used our new baby sitter (Boy is she GREAT!!!!! I could blog a whole entry on her....). We went to see the new Star Wars film. Pretty good overall. I thought the beginning was slow but then it REALLY picked up. And the actor who played Ani must have taken acting lessons cause this time around, he could actually ACT most of the time.
After the movie Ben and I decided to go to the local Red Robbin for a snack. They are a restaurant. We went to the bar and sat at a table. The waitress finally came over and asked us what we wanted to drink. I asked her what wines she had. "Well we have White Zinfandel for white wines," I was told. Ok, it's been awhile since I had a drink, but last time I checked, Zinfandel was pink and considered a blush. So I asked what red wines she had. "We have Chardonnay as a red wine," she answered. Now I knew this waitress was confused or had been sampling the wine cause I was certain that Chardonnay was a white wine. I asked if she had a Merlot, which she did, so I ordered that and Ben ordered a Captin Morgan and coke. When my wine arrived, it was indeed red and in a wine glass. However, Ben's Captin and coke was in a large soda glass. We were skeptical, but there was indeed a teeny tiny bit of Captin in there. Unfortunately he would need a triple shot to make it taste right. The waitress said she'd be right back with a straw for Ben, which never arrived. When she was passing by, we asked if we could order something to eat. She wanted to know what we wanted. We told her that we needed to see a menu. After reviewing the menu, we chose the chicken quesadillas to share. When she was dropping the food off, she spilled tomatoes all over one of the plates and had her hand in our lettuce, which she then picked up and moved to a different spot on the plate. She never brought us napkins or silver. We were planning on asking her for these things when she did a check back. Well that never happened. Infact she then dropped the check with out ever offering us another round on our drinks. Then as were getting our money ready, she came between us and asks for the sugar caddy. Everything was so absolutely wrong, we were sure that we HAD to be on some hidden video show. The service was soo bad, it was too bad to be angry, we just laughed! So watch out for the Bendys.... Saturday, May 21
A little bit of this and a little of that...
by
welee
on Sat 21 May 2005 09:12 AM PDT
The good/funny:
My kids are a trip. When I walked into my room today, Sam says to me, "Look how clean the furniture is Momma." So I take a closer look to find that there is baby lotion smeared all over my dresser. I then look at Sam. "I helped you clean," she proudly states, beaming ear to ear. Well I guess Baby Kit didn't want to be out done today cause he helped too. After I got done shaking out the duck bathmats and moping the floor and had everything put away, in comes my handsome little 17 mth old toting my wet mop that he some how managed to get down from a hook. He proceeds to move the duck mats and start moping. After a few minutes, he stops moping and drops the mats in a bunch in the middle of the floor. He then straightens them as best as he could while giving me the cheekiest smile I ever saw! Too cute!!!! The annoying: Awhile ago I mentioned a non board friend of mine who ALWAY complains about her two boys who for some reason decided that they might go for baby # 3. Well today she tells me at a bday party that they got pg on the first try and she is now 9 weeks. I mean I am happy for them (I guess) but now I know I am going to hear her bitch and moan even more... I have decided tho that I am going to give things a rest for awhile. I am tired of going round and round with Ben. Undecided and no bc will have to do for now. And truthfully after Kit's latest stint in the hospital, I am too tired to worry about that I am ovulating. It just feels like a kick with my friend, but I am not going to open another page of whine. Time: To go outside and play with the kiddos! Friday, May 20
Bullshit...
by
welee
on Fri 20 May 2005 09:11 AM PDT
You know, I have posted to a board for about 4 years now. I have read many things, many TMI about so many things. When something was more than I wanted to know, I just passed it over. And many things were written in black and white on the page. Well today I shared about a REAL WEIRDO who was reading my blog. I wrote that it was gross and a link in case anyone wanted to see how gross this person was (in my opinion...). I did not make ANYONE link the link. Well don't you know that I was ticketed and told to remove the link. So fine I did. But what bullshit. I rarely say boo to anyone about anything, but when I go there to share that I am a little grossed out - not wanting to say to much here being that the weirdo was/is reading me here, I get my wrists slapped. BULLSHIT. But I can read about how someones kids molest their other kids and all sorts of other bullshit. I guess it's ok for some but not for me. Makes me REALLY FUCKING PISSED OFF.
At least here I can just say what I want. Thursday, May 19
The one about when Ben tripped on cough medicine...
by
welee
on Thu 19 May 2005 09:10 AM PDT
And this was just the other night. So Ben and I have this wicked nasty evil colds that we got from Kit's stay in Peds. We have no adult cold medicine in the house but I remembered that I had some med for the kids that is an antihistimien/decongestant/cough med. I figured it was ok for me to take with nursing Kit 1x a day. There was no dasgae info on it on the net, so we figured if Sam could take three quaters of a teaspoon to a full teaspoon then we could easily double or triple that amount, right? So I took 3 teaspoons and ben took 2.5. He then went up to bed.
While I was playing on the computer, I started feeling like I was whirling around like in a whirlpool, but didn't think anything about it. It was when I stood up and couldn't feel the ground below me that I was like, hmmmmmmmm... So I go to bed, well for the next several hours, I was waking up with wild mini dreams and flashes every ten minutes. I swear to pikles! Well during one of my wake ups, Ben bolts up emphatically asking me, "Did you see that, did you see that?"I told him that he was having a mini trip from the medicine and needed to go back to bed. He also continued to get up every ten minutes.It was sooooo bizarre. Thank God, we didn't take more. I tried looking it up again tho and couldn't find dosage and on the bottle I couldn'f find the strength of the meds per ml. Now I am wondering if it is the totally wrong strength for my kids and if I have been dosing them. I mean if I felt that with three teaspoons, how wacked must have Sam been at 1 teaspoon and Kit and a half of teaspoon. So as I test last night I took one teaspoon and it worked really well with out the trippy side effects. But I think I may not give it to the kids any more or dose it down A LOT for them. Life is a wild ride!
Christopher...
by
welee
on Thu 19 May 2005 09:10 AM PDT
is doing soooo much better - solid poop and no puke. And boy oh boy is he such a pleasant boy. He rarely fusses, easy to get to sleep, eats well and always has a smile on his little face. It fills my heart to see him back to his normal active self. He is just an absolute joy to my life!
Samantha....
by
welee
on Thu 19 May 2005 09:09 AM PDT
Love is....
When you are laying next to your daughter and she turns to you and says, "Momma, you have bugs (boogies) up your nose." And then before you have a chance to reply. she shoves her little finger up your nose and says, "That's ok Momma, I'll get them out for you." Brag...Sam was outside playing with her best buddy Morgan and another girl, Leanne. Morgan asked Sam if she remember a story about a big brown bear that she had told her. Sam said that she did. Morgan then turned to Leanne and starting calling her the big ole brown bear. As Morgna taunted Leanne, Sam saw that Leanne was getting upset.Sam stood up with both hands on her hips and said, "Morgan, Leanne is not the big brown bear. You are not being nice and you are making Leanne feel sad. I think you need to say sorry."Morgan was so floored at what Sam said, she just up and went home.Ben and I were soooo proud of Sam for having her own mind, not going with what her friend wanted her to do and not being afraid to do the right thing. Yeay Sam!The Contrary Threes.... Some days it seems that Madam Stinkpants (aka Sam) just takes issue with every little thing. Why oh why is everything an arguement? Today we were at a bday party and my Sam was the one who was having an issue with everything. Yes, it was me that had that kid today. I know it is normal, but boy does it feel like I am el-sucko parent. And then of course, she refused to nap. Can't wait for bedtime tonight!!!!!> Monday, May 16
Finally home...
by
welee
on Mon 16 May 2005 09:08 AM PDT
Last Tues we had to take Sam to the doc cause the stidor in her throat was HORRIBLE. She ended up having both croup and bronicitis. So she was put on antiboitics and steriods. Let me forewarn you that my brain cells are shot and I am beyond tired, so there will be typos and mis-spelling galor here....
Well later that day Baby Kit started puking and it did not stop for almost 18 hours. About 8 hours in started the worst smelling diarreha that I have ever had the misfortune of smelling. OMG it was like something crawled up him butt and died. I felt so bad for my boy tho, I just held him as he wretched and wretched. He stopped puking for about 12 hours and then started again. Stopped again and then started 12 hours from then. As the time moved forward, he just became so listless and we knew that he was not doing well. After 48 hours went, I took him to the ped and they sent us straight to the hospital. They suspected Rotaviris. His ketones were off the chart and his CO2 was really low, which inidicated that his kidneys were shutting down and we are lucky that we got him there when we did. They immediately got the IVs running. And even with them going 24-7, it took almost a day until his diapers started getting wet. Of course I stayed with him. Ben and Sam came when they. The hospital was ok. Some good some bad, but overall, I found kinda uncaring. I mean they did their job but that was about it. I woke up Sat morning with such a head ache, I thought my head would fall off. I asked if one of the nurses could stay with baby Kit for a moment while I ran to their gift shop to get some tylenol. (They could not give me any...) I was told no cause they were too busy. BTW, the floor was not even half full. Each nurse had 2 patients. Yes, I can read the boards after Sam's stint in PICU. So that meant I was screwed because Baby Kit would freak out when put in that jail looking crib (it was silver and did look like a jail). I could not leave my baby freaking out, flailing himself with an IV in his arm. They were just like, oh well.... WTF?????? And while I am venting... can I say how many kids were there with out a parent! WTF is that? You'd have to shoot me and drag me still clasped to my child's bed to get me away. Luckily, we got to come home late Saturday, but I have been too exhausted to blog. They wanted to keep baby Kit longer, I begged them to let me bring him home. Sunday was rough cause he still was not taking in a lot of fluid, but we kept trying to get a little in him as the day went on. Today was much better and we are hopeful that we are coming out of the woods. Sam was also still pretty sick when I got home, she was still on the steriods and antiboitics. She was also VERY mad at me for being away. All day she acted helpless and kept saying that she was a sick baby. I know she she where I was and that Baby Kit was really sick but in her own mind, she was at home sick and I was not there. So after I got Baby Kit to bed on Sat and Sunday, we spent lots of time just us gals. To boot, now Baby Kit has an upper resporitory infection as do Ben and I. I think it was a party favor from being in peds for a few days. Hospitals AKA Germ Factories. So now the kids are in bed and asleep and I am soon to follow. Thanks everyone for the prayers. Specifically M, I have had you and Baby F in my prayers, I hope that she is home and the billis are going down and that you are recovering. I will be keeping you both in my prayers. Everyone else, I am behind in my blog readings but know that you all are in my daily thoughts and I hope that everyone if well.
XOXOXOXOXOXO!! Saturday, May 7
Totally TMI, so be forewarned...
by
welee
on Sat 07 May 2005 09:06 AM PDT
Such a tease that bitch AF is. She decided to be 4 days late, which for me NEVER happens. Of couse I tested once I was 2 days late and again 3 days late, but I had to go and buy one of those fancy digital tests. And don't ya know it, both give me an error message. Not a yes, not a no - just an error. So after my dumbest day at work ever, I went and bought 2 old fashioned pee on a stick and see a plus sign or not.
Like a good girl, I saved all my best morning pee and POAS. I thought I saw a plus but faint. Ben said he saw it but it was too faint for him to count as a +. Well later that day, spot decides to show. She was faint and orange/brown, so I tried holiding on to hope. Alas, the next day, she came on much more red and altho she didn't really fill a pad, she left AF style leavings in the toliet. The weird thing is today, I still have red blood, but no treats in the toliet and only some on a pad. It's like it is over. A one day period with a day before and a day after of spotting? Weird. Maybe it's stuck? The kicker is that my boobs are still KILLING me and tonight when I was mowing the lawn, my mouth tasted like metal. I feel like my hormones are just SOOOOO fucked up. It sucks, but the only way I am going to get pg and be able to stay pg is with taking Clomid. And I WON'T do it til Ben gets on board and he is not yet. (Needless to say, we went round and round about that. What a way to make myself feel even better when AF has already kicked me and cut me open leaving me to die...) The only positve thing that happened is that Ben finally admitted that he can think of some positives about having a 3rd. He is still undecided leaning toward no, but it is a start. So I have been a bit MIA and indugling in my own pity party full of whine... Ok God, it's me Wendy and I am waiting for a miracle here. I'm a good mom and 3 is just the perfect number for me... Speaking of prayers and requests for God, please get those billirubins down for Baby F and healing vibes for her mom. And send some healing vibes for Momma's momma down in sunny Fla. Send some peaceful vibes to Jedi Mel and my friend Jen (not any board Jens...) who are weaning from the crazy meds. And some STAY PUT vibes for little baby Logan and his mom who is hoping for 9 more weeks.... And to all my friends who are moms, HAPPY MOMMY'S DAY!!!!!! Tuesday, May 3
Tonight I was a stupid moran at work....
by
welee
on Tue 03 May 2005 09:04 AM PDT
I made more mistakes tonight than I have made the whole year I have been there, Luckily the kitchen covered my sorry ass when I forgot, yep just forgot, to give them my slips. It wasn't super busy. I was just brain dead.
And then there was clutsy... I was walking into BIG trays of dough that were just sitting there... Uh, hello, I lost my brain... has anyone seen it???? So the guys at work and I had a good laugh at my weirdness. I am lucky that I was still charming and came home with 87 from my lovely little customers... Saturday, April 30
Sick Sick Sick... blech.....
by
welee
on Sat 30 Apr 2005 09:04 AM PDT
Once again the snot cooties have infected my sinuses. The kiddos as well, but I can at least give them decongestant. I am still nursing the boy 1x a day, so I won't take any. Altho last night was soooooo bad that I woke up in the middle of the night and tool Benadryl. Now this morning I feel like medicine head. YUCK.
I worked an extra night this week (last night) and I kept getting late night stragglers. So I didn't get home until 11:30 PM. That sucked too. I mean the money was great ($144.00) for 6 hours work, but I really wanted to be asleep by then.So today I am tired, sick and stupid, lol.The kiddos are great - making me laugh every day. Yesterday morning the kids were rammy so we hopped in the minivan and went for a ride in the country side. We saw different animals, cow, pigs, and sheep. And we went by a river. Well Sam started pretend playing that the pigs were in the river and they needed help. Then the cows, then the sheep. We could talk about how we could help them. We used our backpack and our map and then we had to find the horses and the invisible unicorns to help. They knew how to get the animals out of the river. Well we found them and they did. So when we got home, I got the kids out of the van and we started singing the Dora WE DID IT song. It was really funny! My other funny story today is that both Sam and Kit are into the toy shopping carts. So when I had to go to the market for a few things, we brought their carts too and we all pushed carts. I then put stuff in each of our carts and we all paid our own tabs at the check out. Boy did they look cute!!!! Monday, April 25
Random thoughts....
by
welee
on Mon 25 Apr 2005 09:03 AM PDT
1. WE BOUGHT A MINI VAN TODAY!!!!! (Yes, Jen, I know we are opposites today, but hey - that is ok!) It is a Chrysler Grand Voyager. It is a 2000 but in GREAT condition and I LOVE it! Ben will get my SUV for work and the Pimp-mobile will be sold. I will post pics of the Pimp-mobile tomorrow and the new minivan WOO HOO! And we got a GREAT 36,000 mile/3 year warranty that covers just about EVERYTHING!
2. Wondering how preggo Chelle is doing. Looking forward to little one arriving.3. Welcome lurkers and thanks for those of you who signed in. Rennie, it's great to have you here. Both Amys, great to chat with you again. Wendi, Suzanne, Momma, Tammy, Kristin, Jen and Ari - you're hardly lurkers and I LOVE ya!4. Thru checking IPs, which is done purely out ot nosiness on my part, I have discoverd not only do I come #1 for Girls boobing girls, I also come up between #1 and #3 for Rotavirius, Rotavirus and Bath, and Green Poop. Gee, I am feeling all special. Maybe my blog isn't as interesting as I thought... I must talk about shit and boobs A LOT, LOL!5. Mr./Ms. Melbourne Australia, I am pretty sure that I am book marked, cause there are no links to my page. Ya know what, as long as you are not my dumb ass sister in law, who lives in Australia, I don't give a crap. Read away! But don't harass my friends. And if you are my SIL, PISS OFF!6. I have decided to forgive Ben. It's too hard being pissed at my best friend, but I still plan on giving him shit over it for quite awhile and yes, his ass is up with the kids this week! HA HA!7. I've had a few interesting dreams... none as interesting as Margie's but intersting non the less. I will share them in a week or so....8. Good luck and sanity wishes to Jedi Mel for weaning off the crazy meds. It is a BITCH!9. Stupid TIVO did NOT tape DH last night cause they had to go ahead and add the special shit in the name and TIVO did not recognize it. MAN! So is Zach Dana or what?10. New Veronica Mars this week. Love that show. Logan in HOT! Ok folks, I am off! Sunday, April 24
LURKERS!!!!
by
welee
on Sun 24 Apr 2005 09:02 AM PDT
Hey folks, I've noticed I get a lot of traffic from unknown and unusual places. That's cool. I mean I am putting my life out there and someone is reading it! So please leave me a comment and tell me where ya are from - especially if ya are from another country!
Girls boobing girls....
by
welee
on Sun 24 Apr 2005 08:58 AM PDT
Yep, I had two differenet people find my blog when doing a search on Google for Girls Boobing Girls. In fact, my blog was the first thing that came up! LMAOPIMP. One guy was from Spain and the other from Germany. I guess the horny fellas were sorely dissappointed when they pulled up my blog!
(I have an ISP tracker thing and from that I can pull what pages got them to my blog...) So there you go, I am #1 for Girls Boobing Girls! WOO HOO!!!!!
Update on the prick...
by
welee
on Sun 24 Apr 2005 08:56 AM PDT
By the time Ben got home last night, I was tucked up in bed watching a movie and Sam was asleep next to me. I turned off every light, locked the door and shut every baby gate. I hope he tripped...
So he came upstairs and said he brought me a present. I said I was not interested and that he needed to go away cause Sam was sleeping. So after the movie, I went to sleep too. At some point Ben moved Sam to her bed and came to bed. Every time he tried to cuddle me, I told him to leave me alone. He said he was sorry. I told him to leave me alone. This morning he got up with the kiddos even tho it was my turn. Sam got up first and Baby Kit slept late. I came down when Baby Kit woke. Afer we got the kids settled, we went in the kitchen to talk. He said he was REALLY sorry and to prove it, he was going to get up every morning for a week with the kids. We usually take turns. He said this was to prove it cause I said words were cheap and actions speak louder than words. He said this was an action to show me. So, I got the apology, but you know what? I am still hurt and I have not forgiven him. I told him that it makes me wonder what else he says and does behind my back. And that hurts so deep because I have always had siuch a blind and loving faith in him. It's not divorce court here, but it is going to take me some tiime to get past this. I just feel SOOOOO betrayed. Friday, April 22
My husband is a prick...
by
welee
on Fri 22 Apr 2005 08:55 AM PDT
So I am talking with Ben the Prick while I am going thru my cingular phone bill, whom he happens to work for, and I noticed that they charged me something stupid like 10 cents on something they haven't had. So I mentioned it in passing cause they have charged me little amounts that they should not have before.
He said jokingly that he had 10 cents on the register and he'd bring it home for me if that would make me happy. I said, uh no but that if Cingular did that to a million customers that it would add up. He said again still joking that he'd bring home the dime. I told him that it was not necessary and that calling customer service was not worth my time for 10 cents, lol. So he hung up, but I didn't cause I was on my hands free and I was busy with the kids. Well he did not know I was there and it couldn't of been more than a minuted before I hear him start making fun of me cause they overcharged me a dime and how I was making such a big deal about it. Then I hear laughter from him and his coworkers. He then goes on to flat out lie and said that I was going on and on about it being a conspiracy and blah, blah, blah. I then hung up and called him. I said that if he was going to talk smack about me to his coworkers then he really should be smart enough to make sure that I was not on the phone. Well then he was all full of Oh I am sorry, I was just joking, I didn't mean it, it was just Daphene and she knows you...blah, blah, blah. Like any of that makes a difference???!!!! He was making jokes at my expense. That is just wrong. And I do KNOW his coworkers. Some of them I trained before I left the company! So what he thought it was funny to make me look like a dumb ass??? I just think that there is something really wrong about this. I would NEVER make shit up about him and make fun of him behind his back like that to coworkers. I am just so totally disgusted right now. I feel like I have been betrayed - like it is a breech of trust. He's supposed to be my best friend, right???? I am so freaking angry and hurt, I just do not know what to do.
Scared Shitless today....
by
welee
on Fri 22 Apr 2005 08:55 AM PDT
So today we went to my friends house for a playdate. She has a daughter, R, who is Sam's age and another daughter, S, who is a few months younger than Kit. So R and Sam get along great and play. Well today we were planning on going outside, so I put sunscreen on Sam and R first and then on Baby Kit. My friend had let the girls in the garage and opened the garage door (didn't tell me that). Well when I thought it was a little too quiet, I went to check on the girls and they were GONE. My freaking heart sank and I felt PANIC flood thru my veins.
I called to friend and she said calmly, "Oh they probably went on the side deck." (Their house is very high. There is an enclosed side deck. But behind the house is a fairly large creek that is cerainly deep enough to cause trouble.) So I ran to the side deck and the girls were not there. So I called back, "NO!" All that kept racing thru my mind is that they found a way to the creek and what if they got in the water... "Oh relax and don't worry, they probably went next door," my friend said eerily calm. "R runs over there all the time." Well I didn't give two figs and a cookie what R does when my Sam is not there but MY Sam was gone! So I sternly said to my friend, "This is NOT acceptable. You need to go inside and look for the girls while I go next door and look. NOW!" And I ran next door. As soon as I got there, I saw that the car was not in the driveway, but the door was open. As I went inside I heard two little voices giggling. "SAMANTHA, R, you get here RIGHT now!" I said firmer than I think I EVER said anything. I'm not sure what I said next, but I had those girls in a line and marching (literally cause I said march and they took me literally...) back to my friends house. I immediately put Sam in time out and let her have it. My friend did the same with R. After a few minutes, Sam came over to me and for the first time, I got a really sincere apology. "Mama, I am so sorry. I won't go outside anymore with out you. I don't want a mean man to get me." "Do you know how that made Mama feel?" I asked. "Sad," Sam answered. "And how else?" I queried further. "Angry and scared," Sam said. "Do not do that EVER again,: I told her. "I won't and I love you Mama," Sam said as she hugged me. Now my friend's daughter only yelled the whole time she was in time out. And once I let Sam out, my friend let R out but never talked about what she did. All R said was that she wanted to go outside and play. I really like my friend, but it is clear that she lets her kid just run amuck. I mean Sam followed R but it was at her house and I truly think she was following R's lead. Sam NEVER does that at home. And after it happened, I KNOW she was sorry. She actually brought it up several times today. How can my friend just think it is acceptable to let her 3 year old run out unsupervised and just assume that it is ok??????? It just blows my mind. Well at least I know that when the girls get bigger, Sam will not be allowed over with out me! Sunday, April 17
Boobing...
by
welee
on Sun 17 Apr 2005 08:48 AM PDT
The boy is now just boobing when he first wakes up in the morning. And even then not always a lot. *Sigh* *Mixed emotions*
I mean he is getting much less shy and more independant. That is a good thing. And we still have our cuddle time. So that is fine too. But it is sad cause he is now really becoming a toddler and not my sweet, sweet baby. Wow. I am just not ready for this. The time just goes by TOOOOOOO fast. Friday, April 15
Odd but true...
by
welee
on Fri 15 Apr 2005 08:46 AM PDT
This is for Jen and anyone else who gets confused by my typos....
I was not born in the same town as Ben. I was born in the USA. However, when I was about 10, I used to play a game with my cousin, who was visiting from Italy. You know, the games girls play where they fall in love with imaginary princeses and get married and all that. Well anyhoo, when my cousin went back to Italy, we used to write letters to each other and to our characters. We did this for YEARS.Well, I got to get in much detail about the love of my life. I wrote about him for over 5 years. Well this is the man I described. He was a quiet man, a bit aloof, a loner. He drank a little sometimes, he smoked, he dressed in all black. He had a quick wit and a dry sense of humor. He did not trust easily. He was from the UK. His mother was an actress and gone. He lived with his father.He had long dark hair and light eyes. And once he fell in love with me, which was fast and furious, the bond was unbreakable. I could go on for hours about this man I used to write about.... I even used to draw cartoon characters of this man. And guess who it looks like...Now fast forward time... I am in real life. I am 26 and I have NEVER gone out with anyone with long hair. I see Ben and my breath stopped. He was the most beautuful guy that I ever saw. I actually stopped walking and talking and just looked. He did not see me, it was threw a mirror. He had long light hair and light eyes and was all dressed in black (Shortly after we got together he dedcided to dye his hair black. He never told me was was going to, he just did it.)When I met him, it was obvious by his speech, that he was indeed British. Shortly after we started hanging out together, he told me that he does not trust people easily. His father is an artist and gone. He lived with his mom. Ben was very quiet and aloof. And back in the day, he did drink and smoke. And one of the things I fell in love with first about Ben is his wicked dry sense of humor.Ben and I kissed for the first time in August of 1995 and then were married 5 months later. Here we are fast and furious 9.5 years later. So how's that for strange? I knew exactly who I was going to marry YEARS before I met him! Thursday, April 14
Who the fuck I am I?! Who the fuck are you?!
by
welee
on Thu 14 Apr 2005 08:45 AM PDT
(The title is NOT anger, I just thought it sounded funny!)
I guess for the verbal person I am, I tend to talk about lots of things except me. Snaps to Kyra and Momma for the high scores of 70%. I guess I thought that someone would get a really high score, (not that there is anything wrong with a 70%...) esp. cause I sent it to a few friends who have known me since I was a little kid. So here I am....
I used to be a XXX head but a very fucntioning one. Peopel were always SHOCKED to learn that I XXXXXX. Plan to XXXXX again someday too! When the kiddos are grown and out of the house - WATCH OUT! LOL! Yeah, yeah, those are TOMATO plants in my back yard... really!
I fell in love for the first time when I was 15. We were together for 3 years and then I broke his heart. Still are friends to this day. I skipped a grade when I was younger and graduated high school barely 17. Could have skipped my senior year of HS as well but did not want to miss out on the fun. I got a lead in every single play that I ever audtioned for. I had a full Fine Arts Scholarship at a University that my parents did not like, so they made me turn it down and I had to listen cause I was only 17. I gave up men the day before I got together with Ben. I was going to use them and abuse them like I felt they did to us. I love any Cinderella story and I am an etenal romantic. And an optimist. I have saved all love letters that I have received from boyfriends in high sdhool and college and look forward to giving them to Sam someday to read. I also saved a bunch of old diaries and toys too. I had always hoped for daughter to share that stuff with. Ok, now aside from all the factual data... I am a VERY loving and loyal person, but I protect my heart thru a smile and a joke. I am a great listener and will always give advice and help when asked, but I am VERY reluctant to ask for help myself. I ADORE my family. I love being a SAHM. And I still am VERY much in love with my husband. I want more kids, he is unsure, we will see... I am sensitive and gentle, but am strong and independant. I love to write, paint, sing, and spend time outdoors. I think I would have done great if I had been alive in the Rennaissnace. I am not pretentous. Big flashy things do not impress me. I like to know what is below the surface. I think that is why Ben and I tend to have an unusual group of friends. Different can be good. It often is. But sometimes online I feel like I am on the outside looking in and I do not know why. So there you go... an insight into who I am... more than just the facts... So now go study gals! Monday, April 11
BERT IS EVIL...
by
welee
on Mon 11 Apr 2005 07:38 PM PDT
For a GREAT laugh, go here.... IT explains an awful lot about that weirdo Ernie lives with. And Susan, it may even explain about the love of pigeons....
BERT IS EVIL LINK HERE!
Sunday, April 10
THIS IS WRONG!!!!
by
welee
on Sun 10 Apr 2005 07:38 PM PDT
READ THIS!!!!! http://news.bbc.co.uk/2/hi/americas/4425603.stm
I do not mean to offend anyone here, but this is the MOST wacked thing I have EVER read! Pro choice or Pro life - that is another matter for debate. But if a woman chooses to go on BC and her doc gives her the script - who the heck is the pharamcist to deny her! If the pharamcist does not like his/her job, then he/she needs to get another job or join the clergy. This makes me sick. Uh, hello, we are in Amercia... Land of the Free???? Friday, April 8
When it rains it pours...
by
welee
on Fri 08 Apr 2005 07:37 PM PDT
So, to boot, today AF shows up early. I was surprised earlier this month cause I O-ed earlier than usual, so I was all hopeful that maybe my LP was staightening out. I actually missed the freaking O (we had sex but it was purely coincidental...). Well low and behold, ten days after the suspected O, I start to spot today. So of course, I still hope it is late implantation, right? Doubt it. Feels like a good kick in the ass. Every month is the same, a kick in the teeth.
Ben is still on the fence about it, but I just feel like that my miracle of no medication is NEVER going to happen, so I just want to fill that danmed RX of Clomid that has been stuck on the side of my fridge since bloody February. I know he isn't sure yet, but I feel like my time is running out. I just turned 36 and I feel like I am losing what is left of my time to do this one more time. The situation sucks because I understand that it is not fair to make him have another child if her really doesn't want another one, but at the same time, it is not fair to deny me either. I swear, as a wife, I do not ask for a whole lot. (Yes, I know this is a biggie...) And it is so important to me. I just can't seem to find the words to get it thru to him that I KNOW, I KNOW we are meant to have another. I feel the ache all the time. It just makes me want to cry sometimes. Then to boot, a friend of mine just told me yesterday that they are thinking of having a 3rd. She swore up and down she didn't want anymore. But now her DH wants one, so she thinks she might. What really sucks is she is ALWAYS complaining about how her kids drive her nuts and never really had anything good to say about being a parent. Honesty, so why is her DH going to let her have another one and my DH is on the freaking fence? I am a great mom and I love it so. It's not that I don't have my occasional moment, we all do, but for the most part and I am really upbeat and clearly happy with being a SAHM mom. I want to say my life sucks, but that is not true... I have a wonderful DH (even if we are at odds on this) and the two most beautiful kiddos in the world - both of whom I absolutely adore and am soooo proud of. I just paid off all our debt today. I have a nice house. We live modestly, but happily. And I am blessed with some wonderful friends. I am just sad about this one thing. Unfortunatly it is a big thing and I pray that Ben sees my point and I do not have to go thru the rest of my life aching for something I may never have. BTW, new music. As if I am not depressed enough....
GRRRRRRR...
by
welee
on Fri 08 Apr 2005 07:36 PM PDT
So I just get off the phone with my mom. Sh e is upset cause the house is dirty and wanted to vent. Then she has the NERVE to say that she should have come up here so she wouldn't have to look at the mess! GRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRR.... Stupid or selfish? I haven't decided....
I was nice, curt, but nice and simply said that when you do home improvements, the house gets dirty, That is just the way it is, so deal with it. (BTW, the kitchen isn't even finished, so why the frig is she cleaning it anyway????? I mean a lite clean up after my dad has finished sure, but a super clean... why bother??? He still has flooring to finish...) She didn't stay on the phone long with me cause I do not think I was giving her the sympathy she wanted. Truthfully? I don't give a rats behind that her house is dirty.... Luckily the stupid gene was passed to the Wack-a-doodle and not me. I swear to pikles, I must be adopted because I am NOTHING like my relations. Sunday, April 3
Who has the power???
by
welee
on Sun 03 Apr 2005 07:36 PM PDT
And today I learned that my boy plays me and has me trained. I had finished feeding the kiddos and just made a plate for myself and sat down to eat. Well he comes over himming and hawing like he needs to nurse. He starts pulling at my shirt and clawing for the boobs. So I bend over so he can grab them and nurse, but it made it really ackward to eat. So I pulled my shirt back down and said, "No Baby Kit. Mom is eating." I knew he wasn't hungry cause he had just eaten and he ate A LOT. Kit did not like that answer and started pitching a hissy fit. I felt badly; but I was hungry. I knew he was full and had a clean diaper, so he would be fine for a minute. I mean at 15 months, he can wait 5 minutes after he just ate, right? Well after a few minutes, he walked away, grabbed his sippy cup and drank it while smiling at me. When he was finished, he started to play... He just wanted to boobs cause he wanted them and that was that! LOL! My boy just likes to exert who is really the boss. In case you haven't guessed, it is NOT me... Saturday, April 2
Bottoms up!
by
welee
on Sat 02 Apr 2005 07:35 PM PST
Well ok, my bottom has been down but no puking, so that is a plus. They boy has a fever but is not spewing and spraying grossness from either end. Sam is better today and so is Ben. *fingers crossed*
I don't think I can count as high as the amount of times I have cleaned the toliets. Basically anytime anyone yaked or yucked, I scrubbed it down. YUCK! And it was Ben's boss who brought this lovely little virus back in our lives. BASTARD! Thank God he just gave Ben a 4.5% raise. Doesn't sound like much, but the max is supposed to be 3%. Still, DAMNED BASTARD, KEEP YOUR COOTIES! Thanks for the well wishes! XOXOX! Friday, April 1
ROTAVIRUS...
by
welee
on Fri 01 Apr 2005 07:34 PM PST
Has found it's way back to my house. DAMNED ROTAVIRUS!!!!! Right now Ben and Sam are out for the count. So I am trying to keep Baby Kit away from them and I have scrubbed EVERYTHING in this house.
I really, really, really hope I can avoid Baby Kit getting it and I wouldn't mind too much if I missed it too. Any hoo, at least everything is done - cleaning, laundry and shopping so if I do get it, we are stocked and prepared. BLEACH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Wednesday, March 30
Bad things happen to good people...
by
welee
on Wed 30 Mar 2005 07:34 PM PST
As I get older I find that horrible tragedies that I heard about when I was younger that never happened to anyone I know, now happens to people I know.
Today is the funeral for a local police officer who was shot in the back, by accident during a training session for rookies. He is survived by a wife and two children, a six year old daughter and a 3 year old son. The guy who shot him was a friend and now is in a mental institution. I just got done watching the hearse and 40 police cars, from all over the state and NJ, drive by my house on the way to the service. I held the baby and watched as I bawled. These people are my friend Jen's (not from the board Jens...) best friends. Jen's Dh sat in ICU with the wife as she watched her husband die. He was shot at 3:30ish and was pronounced dead by 4:20. As the widow of a cop, she will be set financially for life; however, all the money in the world can't by her the one thing she wants... her husband back. I feel like I can't breath when I think of how hard it is going once the childrend realize what is going on. She has to be strong for her children. How do you do that when someone rips your heart out and you are vacant inside? So if you have a moment, say a prayer for this woman and her children. I know I will be. Thanks. Tuesday, March 29
Dr. George's...
by
welee
on Tue 29 Mar 2005 07:33 PM PST
Teeth whitening REALLY works!!! And it is cheap!!!! Just had to share. Now I am going to bed. Nighty night! Monday, March 28
Easter Bunny...
by
welee
on Mon 28 Mar 2005 07:30 PM PST
The Easter bunny came to our
house. The kids LOVEd their baskets - stickers, small toys, chcoolate and Sam got a Barbie... So we ate some chocolate, Ben and I had some tea, he is now napping and the kids are quietly playing. A nice relaxing morning. HAPPY EASTER! Sunday, March 27
My bday....
by
welee
on Sun 27 Mar 2005 07:31 PM PST
was quiet but nice. One of my friends,
who I have known since I was 9 came up from Atlanta with her two kiddos . Her older one is 2 and the baby is 8 weeks. We met at another friend's house, who I have known since I was 10. She has a daughter 10 days older than Kit. It was really nice. We drank coffee in the morning and munched on fruit, had pizza for lunch and they had a small icecream cake for my bday and got me a gift. It was bath gels, cream and soap in cucumber melon from Bath and Body. I LOVE that place and never spend the dollars on myself.It was really nice hanging out. I do not get to see them often and all the kids got along SOOOO well. It was really weird tho having all our kiddos play when we were kiddos ourselves when we played and got into trouble. Heck, I remember stealing cigerrettes from Atlanta's mom's bag and then going into the woods to share one cigerrette between us. The code word was SLEDING because when you are a kid, everything has to have a code word, LOL!We first became good friends when we were assinged together in the 5th grade to do a report on Alberta Canada. I think I still have the end result somewhere around here, lol! Of course, true to 5th grade fashion, we would get together to work but ended upn gabbing for hours instead. I think in the end, we had to scramble at the end but still got a B, so that worked.Ten days older than Kit's mom also had Easter baskets for all the kiddos, which they all LOVED.I think I monopolized Atlanta's 8 week old, but no one minded. Boy did it feel good to old a little tiny babe. She nestled her little head against me and that was that done, lol! When the kids were eating, I had Sam and Kit in front of me in chairs as I stood behind, holding the baby. Atlanta kept asking if I wanted her to take the baby, but I was like NO WAY! She laughed and said she was taking advantage of it then. It felt good holding a baby while taking care of the kiddos, very natiural. And Baby Kit was actually ok with it. At one point later, he came over to be boobed while I was holding the baby. She was sleeping, so I just moved how she was laying and he got comfy under my shirt and grabbed his snack. One nice thing about nursing an older baby is that they can get the All-You-Can_Eat-Buffet themself. Of course, this was a short time, but it made me feel that I can really handle 3 if and when the time comes.Later that night, we had a quiet evening. Ben had to work late, but we had celebrated my bday the night before when he was home taking care of me after my back thing. He got me a beautiful necklace with the kid's photo etched in it and their names on the back and a ton of starter soil and seeds for my garden. I also got a new watering can and spray mister, Of course, I had to start planting immediately and now our bedroom looks like Old MacDonald's farm, but in 6 weeks it will all be outside in the ground. What can I say? I LOVE making things grow. I shoulda been a farm girl....
Can you say....
by
welee
on Sun 27 Mar 2005 09:15 AM PST
NEW TV!!!!! WOO HOO!!!!!! Sears should call us in about 5 business days to tell us what we get - which will be the same or better!!!!! YIPEE!!!!!
Thursday, March 24
2nd day in a row...
by
welee
on Thu 24 Mar 2005 04:14 PM PST
With no crazy meds and I haven't killed anyone yet... so I guess so far so good. Don't get me wrong, the crazy meds helped me when I needed them with PPD. But, it does seem to me that doctors are too eager to keep people on them rather than treat the problem and help us find a solution.
So if I make it the next few days without any probs, then I am crazy med free! WOO HOO!!!! I have been craving carbs and I have been induldging but I figure if the tail end of withdrawal needs some sugar, so be it! On a good note, I have booked for Indy and we are really excited! It will be March Momma time again soon. July will roll around quicker than we know it. We are going to take a few extra days and drive out but stop in Columbus on the way there and on the way back. We haven't been to Ohio, so we figured it would be nice driving thru and spending a couple of days in Columbus too. Other good news, Ben's mom will be coming ove again from Scotland. She arrives in 2 weeks and we be here for Samantha's PJ bday party. It will be fun. Unrelated - I found someone to come to our house and fix the new sofa! YIPEE!!! And we will deduct what we pay from the sectional we are getting. Yeah baby yeah.... So now I do not care what it costs to fix it. Other than that - work was slow again this week and I am still super duper tired. On that note, it is time to put my sweet boy to bed. Poor thing is cutting his molars on top of a cold. And then there is Sam who has taken to screaming EXCUSE ME whenever I am speaking to someone beside her. Even when I tell her, "just one minute..." She BELLOWS, "EXCUUUUUUUUUUSE ME....." I like the fact she is being polite, but I am having trouble explaining that sometimes she still needs to wait a minute. "But i said excuse me momma, " she says. Oh well, she will get it. So I really am off now. Later guys and gals. Oh yeah, Ben, I know you read this more than you say cause I found it in your history several times. At laeast you can leave me a comment or two... ;) XOXOXOX Wednesday, March 23
A moment from back in hell...
by
welee
on Wed 23 Mar 2005 04:42 PM PST
I am the silvery ice hanging from the rooftop, silent, sharp, strong. Lean on me, but don't take notice that I am numb. Please, dearest coldness, I implore you, stop my pain.
In an instant things happen. A flash. A moment. Time that cannot be taken back.
The heat, the fire, my enemy tried to take you from. Burning and mauling, your beautiful sweet body, your face. Now you, my baby, lay letting the machines live for you.
A child so innocent; A father's guilt. An accident. My beautiful 17th month baby girl.
Time froze as the roar of the ambulance whisked you away. Only recognizable by the little hair ribbon in your hair, your face so swollen that your eyes were half moons. Your ivory complexion was now thick, white and hard like dried candle wax.
I fell to the floor as the gurney was wheeled away. My husband eyes were vacant. Stand up! Get on with the motions; there is time enough later to deal.
Weeks gone by, as I listen to your machines. I watch your tiny chest rise and fall, perfectly timed. All bandaged I cannot recognize you; but as your mother, I would know you anywhere. I stroke your little exposed feet, ignoring all the tubes in and out.
I breathe, inhaling the scent of you. My heart starts fill – warm, painful, overwhelming. The injustice of you laying here…
STOP! Today is not the day to deal. Dearest frozen ice, where are you? I need you. I cannot control the fire with in; and I am afraid that it will cause me to burst in flame. Moment to moment is where I must stay, anesthetized and strong for the family.
WTF???
by
welee
on Wed 23 Mar 2005 04:41 PM PST
Yesterday it was beautiful, warm and sunny. Today is cold and snowing. GRRRRRRRR... No snaps for Mother Nature today!
Tuesday, March 22
Sam's PJ party...
by
welee
on Tue 22 Mar 2005 04:40 PM PST
 Sunday March 13th
10AM -12PM
Pancakes, games, bday cake and fun....
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