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Sunday, July 31
What was YOUR defining moment...
by
welee
on Sun 31 Jul 2005 05:13 PM PDT
A friend of mine recently posted this and it made me think. What was YOUR defining moment that changed your life...
My moment started at the summer of 1995 when my then boyfriend told me after us being together for 3 weeks that he did not want to go back to Scotland. He was an exchange student. I was friends with his flatmates. I was also in the process of getting out of a nasty 3 year live-relationship.
So I said that was fine he could stay with me. I had just gotten my own apartment. I think I told him that he could have a drawer and we'd see how things went. The completion of that moment, January 9th 1996 (US) and February 3, 1996 (UK), that forever changed my life was when 5 months later we got married (twice).
I was 26. He was 20. We had no money. We had no plan. Everyone was SURE we were destined to fail - both family and friends. The only thing I was absolutely sure of, in a way that I have never been sure of anything in my life, was that I loved him. I could not imagine my life with out him. This was a truth that ran deeper than anything else I had ever known.
And here we are now, ten years and 2 and a half kids later.
What/when was YOUR defining moment?
Saturday, July 30
My funny kids..
by
welee
on Sat 30 Jul 2005 05:13 PM PDT
Sam has taken to sleeping in her sleeping bag. Where it came from, who knows? She is so funny about it. She has to have her bag, right next to our bed cause she likes to see us. I asked her why she likes it so much and she explained that it is because it is hers. She further explained that I am not to touch it or her stuff and she won't touch my stuff either. What a funny girl!
And then there is my boy, who has taken to kissing me ALL the time. Awwwww.... He will climb up on my lap and do nothing for 5 mintues but kiss me on my mouth. Then I get a big hug when he is finished before he scoots down and goes to play. Have I said lately how much I adore my kids? Then there is Ben the other night asking me when I am done the first trimester. I was like when did you get so interested???? And he was like, oh no - I am intested. I was confused for a minute and then it hit me... my honey is horny and he knows that THAT gravy train a'int running again til the second trimester! I was like HEY! Of course he denied it until I kept pushing and then he blushed and fessed up. Funny guy!
And then there is work, which has really been getting on my nerves. Too much bullshit for a part time job. Ben and I decided that I am going to stop picking up as many extra shifts. I mean, yes, the money would come in handy, but the stress lately is not worth it. It is a part time thing. It should be cash with minimal stress. The job itself is still easy, but the owner's wife has been hanging around, pretending to work (which BTW, she SUCKS...) and brings her 4 year old and 2 year old who run around, making a mess and getting in everyone's way. She loves to tell everyone what to do, which is funny cause when she is not there, the owner will be the first one to tell you that she is the WORST worker to ever to walk the face of the earth. She "trains" new girls by basically following them around telling them what they are doing wrong. Personally, she is fine to talk to, but in the work setting - her lack of skill and lack of professionalism, drive me crazy. But I am not there for a career, I am there for a p/t thing that makes me some cash. So I am just going to go in for my scheduled shifts and that is it.
Back to happy home stuff... this is Sam's last week of camp *sigh*. She has really loved it and will be sad to see it over. I am going to make cupcakes for everyone for the last day.
Ok, Kyra, it is YOUR turn now - LOGAN GET OUT! LOL! Easy labor vibes... Congrats to Kate and Regan on your new baby girls!!!!
Tuesday, July 26
Houstin, we have a heartbeat!!!!!
by
welee
on Tue 26 Jul 2005 05:12 PM PDT
All looks well with miracle baby! And just for the record, THERE IS ONLY ONE.... The baby is measuring right on target and has a heartbeat of 140 and 149. One tech measured it at 140 and the other tech measured it at 149. It seems that I have a tilted uterus and that makes seeing the baby harder. I never knew that - guess you learn something new every day!
I am SO relived and very excited. It is finally beginning to settle that I AM going to have a 3rd baby! WOW.
Easy labor vibes to Kyra, Kate and Regan who are all ready to pop any minute!
Saturday, July 23
The video!
by
welee
on Sat 23 Jul 2005 05:11 PM PDT
Morning sickness...
by
welee
on Sat 23 Jul 2005 05:10 PM PDT
Has arrived and is here in full force. OMG. I feel like CRAP, which I know is good, but oy! I have been trying to still stick to Micheal Thurman's 6 week and let me tell you, today I have been lucky to keep down toast. Ben said that he remembers reading that once you have MS, it gets worse with each pg. So far this is true. None with Sam, some with Kit and surprise baby - OH YES!
Since I am complaining today, exhaustion has now hit. I made the kids take 2 naps today so I could nap too. In all fairness tho, I drove 11.5 hours on Sunday, never recouped from all the driving and then have worked like a banchee this week as well as taking care of the house.
Speaking of Indy, we had an AWESOME time! My only complaint is that it went toooooooooo fast. There is such a comfort when we are all together and it is just easy - which is the way it is supposed to be when friends get together, but isn't always the case.
I did get to Leanna's room late again this year, but unlike last year, there was no sex involved, so I did not arrive in make-up, LOL! Since I a pg, Ben is cut off for the first trimester, but we wanted a little romantic time, so cuddling while watching a scarey movie was our time this year. BTW, The Ring Two STINKS!
This year at the zoo, Tiffani, Devon and the kids were our companions. We had a blast. We then caught up with everyone at the Dolphin show, which was too much talk and not enough Dolphin!
Dinner was a blast and the kids were playing like mad. Miss Victoria started smooching Gabe, which his twin did NOT like very much. Sam was chasing Jaden around kissing him and declaring him her prince.
As you can see. my Sam is NOT shy! Ben had made a vidoe clip, that I am going to attempt to tag onto my board, so that is all I am going to write for now!
Wednesday, July 20
A quickie!
by
welee
on Wed 20 Jul 2005 05:09 PM PDT
Weekend: FABULISCIOUS TIME IN INDY!
Sunday: Drive for 11.5 hours
Monday: U/s and OB
Tues: Kids at camp, beta, food shop, work
Weds: Kids at camp, work
Thrus: Kids at camp, work
Friday: Morning is mine - WOO HOO! But at night, work.
So, I probably will be a blogging slacker til Saturday!
BTW, if anyone wants to front the money for a Day Camop, I would LOVE to run one. Trust me, I'd make you money and then some! I a dream of mine is to open a Day Camp around where I live.
Will write more on Saturday.
Real quick, Tammy ROCK ON!!!!! We are your kindred naked spirits across the Atlantic! And yes, we say Penis and Vagina. And likewise, my parents freak out when my kids run around outside naked. And my MIL is convinced that everytime Sam dresses Kit up in her Princess clothes, that she is going to "make him gay..."
Kyra, Kate... any babies pop out yet?
Linda - anti puking vibes to you and the troops!
Susan - How is Wayne???
Monday, July 18
Sam one liners...
by
welee
on Mon 18 Jul 2005 05:09 PM PDT
Mama, you broke my heart (When I told Sam she was being naughty...)
Wind is like toliet paper.You're freaking out Daddy (when he was laughing about something...)A fosil is like fishbones that are trapped in mud for a long time.
A little bit of being sorry and a lot of being sorry are a good combintation.
Update...
by
welee
on Mon 18 Jul 2005 05:08 PM PDT
First, my last beta was 6958.
Over the weekend in Indy, I had some spotting...
Which leads us to today...
Well the u/s tech was nice but not the best I ever had. She was afraid to press into me at all. She said my bladder was not full enough - which is ironic cause all I do is drink water all the time. So then she did a vaginal u/s too and was afraid to stick that sucker up me.
She did find a gestational sac and a yolk sac, but could not find the fetal pole. She said I should have measured 5w 6 d and I was only measuring 5w 3d, which is not that big of a deal, but it can make a big difference in what we see. To boot, the baby (only saw one sac) is on the very top of my uterus, so we caught shadow from my bladder as well.
Then I went to see my OB. He did an internal. He said my cervix was high and closed and that he did not see any blood. He said the u/s was good cause it showed that the pg was not eptopic.
They scheduled me for another u/s on Tues 26th. By then we should be able to see the fetal pole and the heart beat.
So it was not what I had hoped for, but it is not dire. Just a bit stressful. I do go in for another beta tomorrow. Will keep you posted.
Thursday, July 14
Beta not in yet....
by
welee
on Thu 14 Jul 2005 05:07 PM PDT
I won't get the results til this afternoon. And to all you triplet wishers *cough, "bite me!" cough*, thanks.... ;)
I will be MIA for a few days cause I am off to INDY!!!!! WOO HOO!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! We are packed and ready to go as soon as Sam gets done camp. Safe travels to all!
Tuesday, July 12
Betas...
by
welee
on Tue 12 Jul 2005 05:06 PM PDT
I just got back my betas...
14 DPO 188
16 DPO 498
20 DPO 3948!!!!!!
My u/s is scheduled for 7-22 to see for sure what is going on. In the mean time, I am going in for another beta tomorrow.
Saturday, July 9
Dirty Laundry....
by
welee
on Sat 09 Jul 2005 05:05 PM PDT
OMG people, have ya seen enough of my dirty laundry???
Rules for Wendy's blog:1. Be courteous to each other even when there is a difference of opinion.2. Remember this is my blog and if you don't like what I have to say, feel free to LEAVE anytime.
Friday, July 8
Second beta in...
by
welee
on Fri 08 Jul 2005 05:04 PM PDT
And it is a nice 498! It nearly tripled! So, my OB office now wants me to have another beta done on Monday and they want to schedule me for an early ultrasound at 6 weeks. Interesting....
Thursday, July 7
Be pro-active with your health care....
by
welee
on Thu 07 Jul 2005 05:04 PM PDT
I know I am. I probably pissed off the OB nurse today, but tuff crap. Yesterday this nurse, M, kept saying that I was only 3 weeks pg and that I shouldn't worry about my betas cause I am barely pg, not really very pg. I then said that as long as they double in 2 days, then I am fine. She said, "ooooooh no, they need to more than double." Freaked me out, so I researched and pestered Michelle. And you know what, betas are supposed to double every 48-72 hours. And you know what else? I was higher than the norm for 14 DPO.
Later in the day I called back because the conversation was bothering me. Once again M made comment about me being only 3 weeks pg. I finally asked if she was going by conception. She was snarky when she answered that she was going by my last menstrual cycle of June 17th. I then corrected her that my last menstrual cycle was June 7th. She started to argue that it clearly said June 17th on her green sheet. When I emphasized that I am pretty sure that I KNOW when my last period was.
Onto today, I called in the AM for my progesterone test. I was told someone would call me back. Four hours went by and no call, so I left a message. Finally at 3, M called me back and told me that my progesterone was 15.8. I said that I was not thrilled with that number. She said that the norm/acceptable is 11 - 40. I said I still didn't like that number. She then went on to say that the number is good for being three weeks pregnant. My tone then changed to a much more assertive tone when I said DID WE NOT CLEAR UP YESTERDAY THAT I AM 4.5 WEEKS PG? Did you forget to change the GREEN sheet? Of course I got a oh yes I did. She then insisted that the number was fine.
I finally explained that when I was pg with my son, my progesterone was a 40 at the same point. She didn't believe that I had it tested then or so her tone indicated. So I further explained that I was seeing an RE at the time, Dr. Lee, in Bethlehem. My RE did the beta and the progesterone in her office. I also told M that if she looked in my file she would see it. I also said that I suffer from a LP deficiency, meaning that from O to period, my time tends to be too short. So having a progesterone deficiency would not shock me. I wanted her to go to my OB and ask for a rx for progesterone.
This woman himmed and hawed that I was getting another result in Monday and we could order more tests.... yada, yada, yada. Well, no that was not acceptable. Thurs to Monday is a looooong time for my itty bitty baby and NO. So I was insistent and finally made her ask. Well you know what? M called me ten minutes later to let me know that the doc had her call in the RX for progesterone.
I LOVE my docs but I do not know this OB nurse and I DO NOT LIKE HER. Man, what if I wasn't a persistent bitch and my progesterone fell and... well. lets not go there. It wasn't like I was asking her to get me some crack on the side. What I was asking for was completely reasonable. I think I will be complaining about her at my 1st appt because I am sure that there are many woman who won't push the issue like I did and this M is a crack pot.
So there ya go!
Now all I have to do is wait for my beta results tomorrow and my next progesterone on Monday!
One of those days...
by
welee
on Thu 07 Jul 2005 05:00 PM PDT
Today isn't a bad day. The kids and I went on a free kiddie train ride that they have set up in the town we live, followed by a trip to the mall. We met Ben there and it was a really pleasant time.
I am just an emotional freak lately. Yesterday I had no patinece at all and I felt like all I did was yell. Granted, all Kit did was either stand on my chair at my computer knocking things off my desk like my speakers and then he'd move to trying to climb onto the kitchen table and then onto stealing whatever Sam was playing with. Of course this was all with his adorable devilish grin! So to try to change to scenery, we went to blockbuster and bought a video. (I had found an gift card with a $17.00 balance - WOO HOO!). Sam really wanted the animation Anastasia. So I got it. (It will be coming with us as well for our 10 hour drive to Indy!).Kit actually calmed down when we got home and I put the DVD in to watch with Sam. Well can I tell you how much I bawled at the end. I mean blubbering like a baby. At this point both the kids were watching while sitting on my lap. Baby Kit was patting me and Sam was asking if I was ok. I explained it was happy tears, which it was. What a weirdo I am.Well then I was watching Live Aid today, I started blubbering again while watching Pink Floyd play. Granted, they are my all time fav band and all 4 of them have not played together in FOREVER. But blubber while they play... uh hello, what the frig is wrong with me? Once again Sam asks if I am ok. I turn Live Aid off.After Sam and Kit were in bed, I put it back on and they were showing the montage of what went on today and I started up again. It is like the water faucet in my brain is broken.
Who knows what I will be crying at next....
Wednesday, July 6
First beta in...
by
welee
on Wed 06 Jul 2005 05:03 PM PDT
At 14 DPO we are 188. Waiting on progesterone test. Go for next beta tomorrow.
Think doubling vibes for us!!!!!
Well Ben knows...
by
welee
on Wed 06 Jul 2005 05:01 PM PDT
If I were to say that things were ROCKY in the house of Lee yesterday, that would be an understatement. Lets just say the 4th of July had nothing on us. However, today is a new day and my husband is now back.
I called my OB office and made my first appts with the nurse and my OB. I also went in today for my beta blood test and progesterone test. The ladies at Quest are so nice, they have been my blood takers with all my pgs and the GD. I told my family and they are thrilled. Ben has not told his family yet, but he is beginning to show signs of excitement. He made me take him when I got my blood drawn today. And he even fessed up that he wants another GIRL. I was like REALLY? I don't care if it is a girl or boy, I just want healthy. Altho I feel girl vibes.
Being that I am 27 (ok, 36...) I know my docs will want to do an amnio. I just do not know how I feel about that. I know the risk of anything going wrong is small, but I don't like putting the baby at risk at all. I know I will have the nuc fold test done at 11 weeks. It can be used as marker for heart problems (which they will do cause Sam had the hole in her heart) and as a marker for DOWNS. And I will do the Quad screening at 16 weeks. I think if both of those are ok, then I will forgo the amnio. Luckily I really trust my doctors, so if they say do it - I may.
Of course I wanted a third, but now that it is a reality, a million fears go thru my head. But it is early and I have time. Two of the kids will be sharing a room, but you know what, that is fine. They are little. If it really becomes a problem when they are bigger, we will deal with it then. Maybe we will be able then to afford a bigger house. You know, years ago, people made it with many more kids and much less cash.
I am excited about the new U/S that they have. After reading Kristen's blog, I CAN NOT wait for my u/s to start! WOO HOO!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
And Miss Michelle, your dreams are still SPOT ON!
On another, sadder note.... Leanna, I am so sorry for your loss.
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