To have a baby.  So pick a date and lets see who is closest.  If all else fails, this little girl is being evicted March 3rd.  So anytime between now and then is game for a bet.

I love feeling her grow, but I am sick of being pg.  I miss my neck, my ankles, the ability to tie my own shoes.  I live at the dcotors.  I miss being able to sleep lying down and walking with out pain every single second.  Being that I am larger than several whales, my ruptured disk is throwing in with my pelvic problems and I am just a one woman freak show.... GD, Pg induced hypertension, too much amniotic fliud, SPD...   Want the baby to be cookeed enough and healthy... but once she is... GET OUT!  LOL.

I try not to bitch too much IRL.  Life goes on with the kiddos and their activities.  Still working, still teaching Sunday School, still taking care of everybody.  Ben has been good with helping with the kiddos and around the house.  A little help, makes a big difference.

However, I know some IRL people near me that need to be hit with the stupid stick.  Let's see, there is a 17 year old complaining that she didn't want to clean the fridge at work cause her back hurt but wanted to know if I'd do it.  UM, THAT WOULD BE A NO!  Then there is another IRL person who hurt her shoulder dancing.  She went to the doc and they said to get an MRI and RX-ed PT.  Depending on the damage would depend if surgery was needed.  She has lost no range of motion, so personally, I think altho it hurts, surgery is not going to happen.  Then goes on complaining about the pain and how she just is not up for surgery... blah, blah, blah...  This person knows I am having a c-section very soon and all.  I wanted to scream SHUT UP YOU STUPID COW,  But, I did not.  I mean, you'd think that maybe one friend or family who lives close by might call to see if they could help me out instead of calling so I can listen to them moan?  Right? 

I am determined to keep things with the kids as normal as possible and still do things.  It hurts, I don't want to, I want to sit with my feet up... but I do not.  For example, today I scheduled a playdate for the kids.  Sam was really looking forward to it.  I got my ass up and everyone dressed and in the car and there on time.  Well, my friend forgot and was not home!  Poor Sam, just sobbed, so dissappointed.  (I took the kids out to TRU and we made a morning of it instead but still...).  Do you think I wanted to go out in the morning, when I had to waitress that night?  NO.  But, I did cause as a parent you do things like that.  You;d think my friend could remember or maybe write the date on her calander or call if she needed to cancel?  WTF is wrong with people??????????  (I did call another friend today and set up another playdate for Sat instead...) 

I can honestly say, my normal patience and empathy is just gone.  Please do not call me if it is just to complain.  I just do not have it in me to be my normal sounding board.  Where is Homey the Clown when you need him to give someone a good sock beating?  (This is not directed to anyone who reads my blogs BTW...)

I am going to stop bitching now.  I will throw out a thanks to both Tiffini, Laura and Carie for listening to my moaning lately.  I really appreciate it!!!  Have a good night everyone.  Sleep well in your beds and get some Zzzzzzz's for me!

Sam wanted to know as she was sitting on the toliet, "Mama, why do BIG poops have to go through a small butt hole?"

Any responses?

And it looks ok for now, so that is good.  However, I have swelled even more (3  more pounds in 2 days) and BP is up.  So as of right now I have pg induced hypertension.  We have to keep a close eye on everything to make sure that it does not turn into pre e.  Good news for now.  It is just weird cause I have never had high BP and I do not like the feeling or the look of being this bloated.  I feel SOOOO unattractive right now.  I have no neck, no ankles... blech!

That's it for now!

BP was 126/80 this morning and I am still as swollen as a pufferbelly.  Headaches that won't go away to boot.  (Altho Laura, the ice did get me to sleep the other night, TY!)  But, no protein.  So I was sent in for bloodwork and I will have a BP recheck next Thursday.  When I got my blood drawn, my arms were so swollen that I did not even feel the needle go in my left arm and then she could not feel the vein at all!  We got lucky with the right arm tho and they got blood.  Fingers crossed that my bloodwork comes back ok.

We took the kids to see Hoodwinked last night.  I was going to take them on my own, but when Ben heard we were going, he wanted to go too.  Luckily he was able to leave work a little early and join us.  Ben never thought Kit would make it thru the whole movie - but he did!  Both kids were great and it was a really fun night.  We snuck in our own candy.  I just can not fathom paying 4.00 for a candy bar, when I was able to get everyone's candy and drinks for 7.00 elsewhere.  But we did splurge on a large popcorn.  Something about the movies requires a bucket full of popcorn.

Sam was memorized the whole time.  She just sat there with her eyes wide open, slowly poppin skittles in her mouth.  Kit sat in his seat most of the time, but occasionally wanted to sit on my lap.  I never mind cuddles from the boy. 

The movie itself was pretty good.  Ben and I enjoyed it as much as the kids and lets face it, many kids films are a little boring, lol.

 

Now onto not so fun things.  I am really not feeling well.  My blood pressure 2 weeks ago went from 100/55 on a reg basis to 124/74.  Then last week at perinatal I asked them to retake it and it was 108/70.  Still in the range of normal, but high for me.  Perinatal asked if I was having any other problems.  Not knowing what they were looking for, I told them how I was feeling.  I have been having pain under my rib cage on the right side.  I know it is not my galbladder cause I do not have one anymore.  I have also been having trouble focusing at night.  The said it sounds like it may be the beginning of pre e.

Last appt I had no protein spilling, but since then I am having trouble focusing more often.  Reading the computer is a bitch.  I am also getting more headaches that are not going away.  My fingers were so swollen today that my ring was stuck.  Now granted I did have a little popcorn yesterday....  I am getting more nauseas on a reg basis - esp when I work.  I am getting dizzy then too.  I thought it was my sugar getting low, but now I do not know.

I go to perinatal tomorrow for a NST and I have a reg OB appt on Tues.  So my BP  will be checked and on Tues they will look for protein.  I just do not have a good feeling about this.  I am almost 37, I am GD on meds and in both prior pgs, my BP NEVER changed, so this is big for me.  And with 2 kiddos at home, wanting to still work, no family close by or very reliable, this would suck.  I'd hate for Ben to have to use all his vacation now and have none for when the baby gets here.  At the end of the day, I will do what is best for baby and me.  It just sucks and I am so tired of feeling badly.

I feel like all I have done lately here on my blog is bitch.  Is everyone sick of me yet?

The scene: Work, at the end of the night after a very busy evening.  Back hurts.  Legs hurts.  Body hurts.

Characters: Me and my male boss.

Boss said, "Hey Wendy, how much have you gained this pregnancy?"

I replied, "About 40 pounds."

Boss said with wide eyes, "WOW, that's a lot!"

I explained, "Well, I never gain a lot until my diabetes comes back.  Then it just piles on.  I am not worried.  The baby weight always comes off.  It's just the extra weight that I had beforehand, that needs to go once the baby is here and I am done nursing."

He stated, "Oh you will NEVER lose that with out surgery."

I laughed, "Um, y'know JXX, I used to be really skinny once upon a time, like a size 8."

He further clarified, "Yeah I know. but you'll NEVER be that again with out surgery."

I shook my head, "Really?  Thanks."

Yes, I was 30lbs overweight when I got pg this time and I have put on a lot of baby weight.  I am in my 3rd trimester and I KNOW a lot of it is bloat cause I can make hand prints in my hands and feet that last.  I can't find my neck.  I haven't seen my feet.  I can't sleep.  I feel stinky and leaky and gross.  Y'know ladies, that lovely, I am just so lovely feeling - NOT!  This is JUST what I wanted to hear at the end of a busy, PIA shift.  LOL.  Stupid man....

Which is short for Symphysis Pubis Dysfunction.

"The symptoms of SPD vary from person to person, but almost all women who have it experience substantial pubic pain.  Tenderness and pain down low in the front is common, but often this pain feels as if it's inside.  The pubic area is generally very tender to the touch; many moms find it painful when the doctor or midwife pushes down on the pubic bone while measuring the uterus (fundal height).  

Any activity that involves lifting one leg at a time or parting the legs tends to be particularly painful. Lifting the leg to put on clothes, getting out of a car, bending over, sitting down or getting up, walking up stairs, standing on one leg, lifting heavy objects, and walking in general tend to be difficult at times. Many women report that moving or turning over in bed is  especially excruciating.  One woman wrote, "There were days that I didn't think I was going to be able to get out of bed and actually had to roll out of bed and onto the floor to be able to do so!" 

Many movements become difficult when the pubic symphysis area is affected.  Although the greatest pain is associated with movements of lifting one leg or parting the legs, some women experience a 'freezing', where they get up out of bed and find it hard to get their bodies moving right away--the hip bone seems stuck in place and won't move at first.  Or they describe having to wait for it to 'pop into place' before being able to walk.  The range of hip movement is usually affected, and abduction of the hips especially painful."  

To summarize, SPD is the mild form of this problem.  Its symptoms often include one or more of the following:

• pubic pain
• pubic tenderness to the touch; having the fundal height measured may be uncomfortable
• lower back pain, especially in the sacro-iliac area
• difficulty/pain rolling over in bed
• difficulty/pain with stairs, getting in and out of cars, sitting down or getting up, putting on clothes, bending, lifting, standing on one foot, lifting heavy objects, etc.
• sciatica (pain in buttocks and down the leg)
• "clicking" in the pelvis when walking
• waddling gait
• difficulty getting started walking, especially after sleep
• feeling like hip is out of place or has to pop into place before walking
• bladder dysfunction (temporary incontinence at change in position)
• knee pain or pain in other areas can sometimes also be a side-effect of pelvis problems
• some chiropractors feel that round ligament pain (sharp tearing or pulling sensations in the abdomen) can be related to SPD

I asked for something to help me sleep cause with this I have not been sleeping at all.  Well God love my doc, she wrote me a script for Tylenol with Coedine!   I still had to swtich a ton from bed to chair and chair to bed, but at least I did get some sleep.  The nights I wait tables, I am in so much pain afterwards - I can not even describe.  This I think is the worst pain I have ever experienced, labor included and don't forget I was in labor with Sam for 26 hours.... So I do not say that lightly. 

Oh the joys of being a woman, lol.  Seriously tho, if I have to have pain, carrying a baby is sooooo worth it!