Today the doc listened to my chest and told me that my chest is horribly tight.  I am using my abuterol every 4 hours and the Singular does not do anything for me.  We talked about my nursing.  He said I should stop and then I could be put on oral steroids.  I said NO.  He understood even tho disagreed and then referred me to a pulminologist.  I have an appt in 3 weeks.

Later today when getting Sam's flu shot, the ped asked me what was wrong.  She said she could hear me breathing as soon as she walked in the door.  I told her about my asthma.  She said that with nursing I could use a neb with Pulmicort.  She has asthma as well and she said it really helps her.  She also reassured me that since it goes straight to my lungs, the amt transferred to Susanna would be minimal.

After we left, I called my doc and pushed for it.  I got the pulmicort today, but can't get my neb til tomorrow.  I am hoping it will work and the permanent vice grip on my lungs lets up.  I am so tired of being tired, hearing myself breath and feeling like the fat lady from the circus has permanently planted her ass on my chest.

On a happier note, Susanna can now pull herself up.  This child is going to be my earliest walker yet!!!!!!