Amnio update:  Had amnio.  Was scared shitless before hand.  Having them before does not lessen the fear, LOL.  I had a great doc, couldn't really feel it.  Came back fast and good.  Baby Lee is ready to be evicted!!!!  WOO HOO!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

DH brag:  It is easy to bitch about the annoying things that husbands do.  They say Men are from Mars and Women are from Venus.  Well sometimes it seems like they are really from UR-Anus.  However,  they do sometimes do the most loving, sweet things. 

Ben and I have not been doing the deed.  I have been feeling such crap and he has been leaving me alone at night to get what sleep I can.  Well I have been having the most wild sex dreams.  Of couse I tell Ben about them and he is like, yeah me too. 

So yesterday we were out to lunch after the amnio and we were talking about not having sex and this pg being hard.  Then Iook at him and say sarcastically and jokingly, "What , you don't find all this sexy?"  And we laughed.  Later that night we were talking and I said that I feel really unattractive.  He looked at me and was geniunely surprised.  He thought I was just joking earlier.  I explained that I do not feel sexy at all.  I feel swollen, fat, stinky, gross, ugly....  The look on his face was so sweet and loving when he said that I still gave him that "special feeling".  I was like, yeah right, but thanks for lying,

I fell asleep in the big brown chair downstairs like normal.  When I woke up during one of my many bathroom trips, Ben had gone upstairs to sleep.  I was fine with that.  He has been getting up at 6 with the kids so I can get a little extra sleep and work has been busy for him.  Well later that night - around 2? - I was woken by Ben.  He came down to tell me and then show me about a dream he had just had,

Well you can use your imagination now because I am not going to get graphic.

But, I thought that was a very loving, tender thing to do.  I know that he got something from it too, LOL.  It was also very lusty.  But, the fact is, he got his butt out of bed, came down stairs to nicely wake me, spend some time together when he could have very well taken care of himself and gone back to bed.  He did it cause he knew I felt bad about myself and he wanted to show me that he still does find me sexy and attractive.

This may not make sense, but to me, this is such a nice thing to do.  It is an affirmation that he does really love me and that means more to me than words can say.  Married for ten years and almost 3 kids later, he still does love me,  Anyone who can look at a 40 week pg woman and still... well yes, that is love!

So you think it can't get any worse with fire ass and pelvis of pain.... until you catch the kid's sickness and find yourself coughing, sneezing, more cleaning of the pipes and barfing your brains out at 2 AM.  You finally get back to sleep at 4 when and then your youngest wakes up at 5 AM.  (Late you take him to the ped and find out the poor guy has an ear infection....)

I am NOT going to jinx myself and say what else can go wrong.  However, by this time next week, my baby will be out of me, I should be bfing her and taking lots and lots of good drugs.

But nice Wendy has gone away for the next 10 days.  Evil whiney, complaining and miserable Wendy is here instead.  So be forewarned, that most of what will come out my mouth will be much moaning and complaining with much self pity.  Understand, I have not slept more than an hour here and there for too long and there is no escape from pain.  So, my pity party is not completely with out cause.  But, it can get tiresome hearing the same person moan.  Thus the warning.

My OB is going to give me an RX for the fire hemroids on my ass.  Prep H and other OTC are doing nothing.  It was bad enough not being able to lay on my sides in a bed from the SPD.  But now I can't even sit in a chair with the fire coming from my ass.  And of couse, the pre baby cleaning of the pipes, does not help that at all.  They won't take the baby early and my contrx are progressing my very slowiy.  I alternate ice on my butt and super hot showers aimed at my butt.  I live on tylenol (with no codeine, thanks a lot relative thief....) every 4 hours and benadryl every night, trying to get some sleep.  Eventually exhaustion does beat pain, but only for a few hours before pain once again wins.  I know I only have 10 days max left, but I am not sure how I am going to get thru them, let alone function. 

I am trying so hard not to be a slug with the kids.  They really are so good and I do not feel like doing anything .  I keep hoping my OB will give me some abient so I can sleep, but they won't.  Grrrrrr....

So evil Wendy continues on.  Nice Wendy will be happy and back once little girl Lee is out.

Today I took the kids to CVS to pick up a few things.  As always, the kids walk with me.  I really do not use the stroller for them and have not for awhile.  There is nothing wrong with using one, but for my family, I like the kids to be able to walk and stay close by.  I feel the only way they learn this is by doing this.  So, we do not use a stroller.  When the baby comes, I plan on having her in the sling - so again, no stroller.  (Until the learning to walk age to about 1.5, where both Sam and Kit needed to be in a stroller, lol...)

So back to the story... we were in CVS.  As we shop, I tell them one item at a time what we are getting.  "OK kids, lets get dad some deodarant, it is down this isle," I say pointing to the isle. They will often run a little ahead and when they get to the item I tell them to stop.  I often ask them which item they like best and then decide on the best item for price.  Then it is off to the next item.

Today when we got to the check out, an older cashier who regularly works there said to me that I have great control over my kids.  They are two of the best behaved kids on a reguiar basis that she sees.  Most parents let there kids run a-muck.  It is particularly refreshing cause mine are so young.  I said thank you, but my kids are just good kids, so they make it easy.  She then said good kids come from good parents.  I smiled and said thanks again.

That just made my day.  We often hear such nasty stuff in life, it is so refreshing to hear something nice.  So I am taking a moment and shamelessly bragging about my well behaved kiddos.  YEAY SAM AND KIT!!!!!

Onto other stuff...

I have decided to tell my one relation about the Tylenol 3 thief cause she has young kids and they see the drug addict fairly reguarly.  I will do it in person and keep it low key.  Being she has kids, young kids, I feel that she needs to know.  And as far as the butt head who stole my pain med, I am just writing her off for good.  I will not send her a thank you for the kid's presents (altho I was very tempted to write "thanks for the kids presents.  Hope you found everything you needed..."),  I think no contact will be enough.  I can not prove it with physical evidence and this person has already proven themself in the past to be volitile and agressive.  I do not need that.  I just will never have her in my house or around my kids again.  She is OFF the list!  That there is the problem solved.  And it is no real loss anyway.

Thank you guys tho for the support and advice.  If I thought there was something to refuge, I might, but I think this woman is in denial.  Unless she is willing to admit she has a problem, she will never fess up and do the right thing.

Back to happier stuff...

Today;s NST showed baby girl doing great.  My fluid is gradually going down which perinatal said is good.  It means baby girl is practive breathing and peeing and doing all the stuff she should be.  Yeay!  And now is she comes, even with no amnio, they will not stop her.  Come on down Miss baby girl Lee!  Even if she lingers in the land of free rent, she will be here in 11 days.  If she lingers, I will enjoy my undistrubed evening TV time and if she comes sooner, I will be holding my sweet new baby.  Either way, I can deal.

Night!

We had the bday party today for the kids and they had a blast.  It was busy and lots of prep beforehand, but soooooo worth it.  Everyone had a great time and my water did not break *stomp foot*.

However, something unusual did happen.  We keep all RX and anything dangerous things locked in a cabinet in the kitchen that only opens with a special magnet.  I keep the magnet on the side of the fridge.  You have to know the exact spot to put the magnet or the cabinet will not open. 

On the bottom shelf, upfront, I keep the things I use on a regular basis... my prentals, Colace, Glubride (diabetic med), Cosamin DS (for ruptured disk), benadryl, kids vitamins and the Tylenoi 3 (for pelvis popping problem.)  I wasn't going to take any Tylenol 3 last night but I was in a lot of pain from getting ready for the party.  I then was thinking about taking 2, but decided on 1 cause I only had 5 left.  I do not take them every day.  A RX of 30 has lasted me over a month.  Anyway, I remember spefically putting them back in next to my Glubride cause I went back in and put 1 back. 

Well today a guest was in the kitchen when I went into the cabinet to grab a TUMS - an essential for any pg woman.  It was just me and her.   And then I shut the cabinet and put my magnet back on the side of the fridge.  I then grabbed some empty pizza boxes and took them outside to the trash.  The trash area is not far from the door.  When I came back in the house a few seconds later, I saw this guest in my medicine cabinet.  At first I was not sure what she was doing, but when she turned and saw me, she grabbed my TUMS bottle.  I thought it very weird, but shurgged it off.  Maybe my mind is too naive to think anything devious.

Well tonight i went in to get my meds ready.  (I have to space Glubride from prentals from Tylenol 3 ect...) To my surprise, my Tylenol 3 was missing.  I called Ben in to look with me cause I couldn't believe it.  We took everything out of that cabinet and it is NOT there.  Who would steal pain medication from a pregnant woman?  I mean WTF????????  I can't prove who stole it, but I KNOW what I saw.  I am still shocked as I sit here and blog about it.  I mean WTF????????   You come to my kid's bday party and help yourself to my pain meds?  What a sick, sad world. 

Needless to say, I will not be inviting this person over anytime soon.

If you want to know more, email me....

Tonight was my last night waitressing til after the baby comes.  I was going to work into next week, but I can not do it anymore.  It was SOOOOO freakling busy, good busy, but busy.  And there is something wrong, when the 9 mth pg lady can run circles around the healthy, thin 16 year old.  I made 120 more than the other girl I was working with.  I made a total of 190 in 4 hours.  It was insane.  I was sure I was going to die... When I actually told my boss that I was getting my last 3 shifts covered, he said "Thank God!  Now just take care of yourself and the baby...."  Altho he has a knack for saying the wrong thing, he really is a nice guy - both he and his wife are... I know that when I run around, he worried that I was going to go into labor.

I know I am a worker and not a slacker, so I know when I feel I have had enough, I have.  I figure making it with in 16 days of the date is pretty good.

Of course I am crippled right now and I have been having a lot of contrx.  I just got out of the shower thinking that would stall them.  So far, not, so I am going to time them.  This little baby is pretty tough putting up with me running around like a freak tho.  LOL.  And like a good girl, once I got home, she has moved lots between contrx.  Always reassuring.

Ben was a good sport when I got home and rubbed my feet.  Good man!

I am off to check on and kiss Sam and Kit.  I love to watch them when they are sleeping.  They are too sweet.

Before I go, Happy bday to Ari's Sean!  Can't believe we are into year 4!  Yikes!

Nighty night!

BTW, I can load everyone else's blog, but can not see mine for crap.  Go figure!

I had my u/s today and baby girls is currently 7 lb 15 oz.  The tech and doc that did the u/s are the same one's that did Sam before she was born and they were with in an oz.  Perinatal tends to be pretty good.