Amnio update:  Had amnio.  Was scared shitless before hand.  Having them before does not lessen the fear, LOL.  I had a great doc, couldn't really feel it.  Came back fast and good.  Baby Lee is ready to be evicted!!!!  WOO HOO!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

DH brag:  It is easy to bitch about the annoying things that husbands do.  They say Men are from Mars and Women are from Venus.  Well sometimes it seems like they are really from UR-Anus.  However,  they do sometimes do the most loving, sweet things. 

Ben and I have not been doing the deed.  I have been feeling such crap and he has been leaving me alone at night to get what sleep I can.  Well I have been having the most wild sex dreams.  Of couse I tell Ben about them and he is like, yeah me too. 

So yesterday we were out to lunch after the amnio and we were talking about not having sex and this pg being hard.  Then Iook at him and say sarcastically and jokingly, "What , you don't find all this sexy?"  And we laughed.  Later that night we were talking and I said that I feel really unattractive.  He looked at me and was geniunely surprised.  He thought I was just joking earlier.  I explained that I do not feel sexy at all.  I feel swollen, fat, stinky, gross, ugly....  The look on his face was so sweet and loving when he said that I still gave him that "special feeling".  I was like, yeah right, but thanks for lying,

I fell asleep in the big brown chair downstairs like normal.  When I woke up during one of my many bathroom trips, Ben had gone upstairs to sleep.  I was fine with that.  He has been getting up at 6 with the kids so I can get a little extra sleep and work has been busy for him.  Well later that night - around 2? - I was woken by Ben.  He came down to tell me and then show me about a dream he had just had,

Well you can use your imagination now because I am not going to get graphic.

But, I thought that was a very loving, tender thing to do.  I know that he got something from it too, LOL.  It was also very lusty.  But, the fact is, he got his butt out of bed, came down stairs to nicely wake me, spend some time together when he could have very well taken care of himself and gone back to bed.  He did it cause he knew I felt bad about myself and he wanted to show me that he still does find me sexy and attractive.

This may not make sense, but to me, this is such a nice thing to do.  It is an affirmation that he does really love me and that means more to me than words can say.  Married for ten years and almost 3 kids later, he still does love me,  Anyone who can look at a 40 week pg woman and still... well yes, that is love!